TMI Tuesday: January 30, 2024

Happy Titty Tuesday

It's time for TMI Tuesday!

The Comfort and Thrill of Sex

Ash:

1. How do you feel about giving anal sex (penetration with penis, finger, or sex toys)?

a. I love it.

b. I enjoy it.

c. I’m ok with it.

d. I don’t really enjoy it.

e. I don’t enjoy it at all.

f. I have never given anal sex.

g. I have never given anal sex but would like to start.

d. I don't really enjoy it. I'm a germaphobe and butt stuff causes me to have so much anxiety. I have pushed past that in the past and explored anal play/pegging with Husband because I wanted to give him pleasure but it's something I haven't done in a long time and I honestly don't miss it. I do, however, enjoy watching Husband have anal sex with other people. I miss that.

2. How do you feel about receiving anal sex (penetration with penis, finger or sex toys)?

a. I love it.

b. I enjoy it.

c. I’m ok with it.

d. I don’t enjoy it at all.

e. I have never received anal sex.

f. I have never received anal sex, but would like to start.

b. I enjoy it. Husband and I usually have anal sex a few times a year and it's something I have grown to enjoy. I just don't want it often. My partner has to be really careful about cross contamination though because of my germ phobia. If your finger was in my butt, please don't touch me until you've washed your hands. And never go from ass to vagina or mouth.

3. How do you feel about getting undressed in front of a new lover, for the first time, as he/she watches you?

a. It’s a turn on for me.

b. It turns me on a little bit.

c. I like it, but only because it gets him/her going.

d. It does nothing for me.

e. I don’t like doing it because I am shy.

f. I don’t like doing it because I think it’s immoral/improper.

e. I don't like doing it because I am shy. Okay, I'm actually not shy. I'm just self-conscious. I don't feel comfortable getting naked until I know they love my body. Otherwise, I just worry that they won't be attracted to me.

4. Do you express your sexual pleasure with moans, groans, sighs, and other noises (provided that you are actually turned on)?

a. Yes, each time I have sex (90-100% of the time).

b. Yes, on most occasions (70-89% of the time).

c. Yes, on some occasions (40-69% of the time).

d. Yes, on a few occasions (10-39% of the time).

e. Yes, but only on special occasions (1-9% of the time).

f. Never, not even when I am really turned on.

a. Yes, each time I have sex (90-100% of the time). If it feels good, I will let you know with lots of little sounds. It's actually pretty easy to know when you're doing something that feels really good for me because I am very vocal. 

5. Do you talk to your partner in a sexually explicit way?

a. Talking dirty is one of our favorite activities.

b. Occasionally, I like to talk dirty with my partner, and I do it with ease.

c. I talk dirty with my partner, but it feels awkward.

d. I would like to talk dirty with my partner, but I don’t dare for fear of being judged or ridiculed.

e. I would like to talk dirty with my partner, but she/he isn’t into it.

f. I don’t talk in such a way because I think it is inappropriate.

g. I don’t talk in such a way because I can’t bring myself to do it.

This is a difficult one to answer. I will say b, occasionally. I like to talk dirty with my partner, and I do it with ease...just not often during sex. I find it incredibly difficult to talk during sex. It's like that part of my brain shuts down and I have a very hard time forming words. But when I'm not having sex? I love to talk about all the dirty things.

6. What kind of animal do you most sound like when building to a climax?

a. quiet little mouse

b. low moaning wolf

c. screeching beluga whale

I'm much louder than a quiet little mouse and I definitely don't scream. So, I will go with a moaning wolf. I've gotten a lot of compliments on my moan. So, apparently, it sounds good, whatever animal it sounds like.

Bonus: Which do you prefer: comfort sex or thrill-seeking sex? Why?

Comfort seekers value deep intimacy, quiet engagement, and trust over time of familiar relationships. For them, sex is best as a safe, loving nurturing space.*

Thrill seekers value wild energy, adventure, and novelty; they are willing to try open relationships, testing themselves outside average sexual practices. These folks crave a place to push the boundaries of new experiences.*

I am most definitely a thrill seeker. I love to experience new things and have my boundaries pushed. Adventure and wild energy is exciting and I am here for it.

Husband:

1. How do you feel about giving anal sex (penetration with penis, finger, or sex toys)?

a. I love it.

b. I enjoy it.

c. I’m ok with it.

d. I don’t really enjoy it.

e. I don’t enjoy it at all.

f. I have never given anal sex.

g. I have never given anal sex but would like to start.

a. I love it. I think that anal play was the first deviant thing I encountered and it sank deep inside of me. I love giving anal sex, but sometimes the idea of it gets me revved up yet the act of it (with my cock) doesn't live up to the hype. Wife has a spectacularly magical pussy and it is my absolute favorite place to put my cock. I do treasure any opportunity that I am gifted with Wife's ass, I am not going to turn away any of her holes!

2. How do you feel about receiving anal sex (penetration with penis, finger, or sex toys)?

a. I love it.

b. I enjoy it.

c. I’m ok with it.

d. I don’t enjoy it at all.

e. I have never received anal sex.

f. I have never received anal sex, but would like to start.

a. I love it. / b. I enjoy it. I am unsure about whether I love it or enjoy it. It's been a long time since I've felt the desire to receive anal. Between my overall mental comfort level / health and sexual priorities it hasn't really floated to the top of what I want to do.

3. How do you feel about getting undressed in front of a new lover, for the first time, as he/she watches you?

a. It’s a turn on for me.

b. It turns me on a little bit.

c. I like it, but only because it gets him/her going.

d. It does nothing for me.

e. I don’t like doing it because I am shy.

f. I don’t like doing it because I think it’s immoral/improper.

b. It turns me on a little bit. / e. I don’t like doing it because I am shy. Mostly e. because I AM shy and nervous a lot. I am not self-conscious about my body, I am very much a comfortable nudist. Something about the idea of undressing for the first time while being watched evokes a feeling that I am performing, which I am very uncomfortable with. If I could get that part out of my head I would probably enjoy it quite a lot; knowing someone is interested in me makes me feel sexy.

4. Do you express your sexual pleasure with moans, groans, sighs, and other noises (provided that you are actually turned on)?

a. Yes, each time I have sex (90-100% of the time).

b. Yes, on most occasions (70-89% of the time).

c. Yes, on some occasions (40-69% of the time).

d. Yes, on a few occasions (10-39% of the time).

e. Yes, but only on special occasions (1-9% of the time).

f. Never, not even when I am really turned on.

a. Yes, each time I have sex (90-100% of the time). I remember a time when I was conditioned by previous partners that I wasn't to make any noise because it ruined things for them. So it used to be an e. {Yes, but only on special occasions (1-9% of the time)} because even with that horrible conditioning I couldn't always help myself and would have been punished for it. Along comes GirlFriend, who is now Wife, who values hearing my pleasure and helped me start the journey of vocalizing my pleasure. Now, after many years it is ALL the time! 

5. Do you talk to your partner in a sexually explicit way?

a. Talking dirty is one of our favorite activities.

b. Occasionally, I like to talk dirty with my partner, and I do it with ease.

c. I talk dirty with my partner, but it feels awkward.

d. I would like to talk dirty with my partner, but I don’t dare for fear of being judged or ridiculed.

e. I would like to talk dirty with my partner, but she/he isn’t into it.

f. I don’t talk in such a way because I think it is inappropriate.

g. I don’t talk in such a way because I can’t bring myself to do it.

b. Occasionally, I like to talk dirty with my partner, and I do it with ease. / c. I talk dirty with my partner, but it feels awkward. I sometimes feel very awkward about dirty talk, but I very much like it. I think if it came a little more naturally to me it would happen a lot more often. When I am feeling very sure of myself and have excess confidence from somewhere it flows and comes out much more easily.

6. What kind of animal do you most sound like when building to a climax?

a. quiet little mouse

b. low moaning wolf

c. screeching beluga whale

b. low moaning wolf; and now with even more growls!

Bonus: Which do you prefer: comfort sex or thrill-seeking sex? Why?

Comfort seekers value deep intimacy, quiet engagement, and trust over time of familiar relationships. For them, sex is best as a safe, loving nurturing space.*

Thrill seekers value wild energy, adventure, and novelty; they are willing to try open relationships, testing themselves outside average sexual practices. These folks crave a place to push the boundaries of new experiences.*

I have spent more time in my life seeking comfort sex over thrill-seeking because of difficulty knowing what I want and asking for it. I'm trying to learn to go for the things that excite me and seek thrills more. It is still a new and slightly daunting endeavor for me, but I do feel very safe working through all of this now that I am working on myself. 

TMI Tuesday: August 30, 2022

It's time for a TMI Tuesday blog confessional!

List 10 things you screwed up.

1) I spent too much time in my life worrying about keeping the number of sex partners I had in a low range instead of just enjoying myself and having sex with whomever I wanted to at the time.

2) I've given out way too many blow jobs to men who had no intention of ever pleasing me in return.

3) Allowing people to take advantage of me and/or fuck with my head. I am too nice to people who treat me horribly in return. I need to stop doing that.

4) I should have reported the teacher who tried to have sex with me in high school. I fear that he preyed on someone else after he was unsuccessful with me.

5) I wish I didn't convince Trystan to fuck me. He is very gay and I fear that I may have made him feel obligated at the time. I still feel guilty about that.

6) I should have partied more in college instead of wasting all that time studying for a degree that I don't even use.

7) Sex with the Doctor was a mistake. When I think about it now, there were so many red flags that I ignored.

8) Sex with G was also a mistake but the BDSM scene we had was so good that I think about it often. I wish we could have kept the kink without the sex.

9) I spent a ton of money on calling cards in high school so that I could have phone sex with random men from the internet. That was probably a poor choice.

10) When a band offered me money to record my moan to put on their album, I should have said yes. I'll forever regret that I didn't go for it.

Bonus: What do you need advice on?

How do I find someone who actually wants to have a relationship instead of people who ghost me after talking for 2 weeks?

A Valentine's Day Fantasy

It was Valentine's Day but we had never really made a huge deal of it in the past. This year, we decided to go out to dinner. Things have been very busy and stressful lately. It was really nice to take some time to reconnect.

The food was wonderful and the conversation was even better. We started talking about our hectic schedules and all of the stress we've been under. Though, it didn't take long before things got very steamy. We talked about all the things we wished we could do to each other if only we had the time. I fidgeted in my seat. The more we talked, the more my clit became engorged. I wanted to touch myself but I was too scared that someone would notice. I rushed through my food, hoping to get some relief once we returned home.

On the ride home, we talked about what we wanted to do once we got inside the house. I kept thinking about his cock, imagining it sliding into my hungry cunt. I needed it so badly. I touched myself gently, on top of my clothes. My crotch was very wet. I let out a tiny sigh. Fuck, I just couldn't wait to feel him inside me.

As soon as the front door closed, Husband pushed me against the wall and kissed me hard. He wrapped his hand around my neck and I melted into him. He kissed the side of my neck, working his way up to my ear. He whispered, "Go to the bedroom, remove your clothes, lie down on the bed, and put on the blindfold. Wait for me there." I couldn't find the words to respond, so I just did as I was told.

It felt like an eternity, just lying on the bed in total darkness, waiting. I wanted him...no, I NEEDED him. It was all I could think about. I rocked my hips, imagining his cock filling me up. I moaned slightly, wishing he would hurry.

Finally, I heard the bedroom door open. My body quivered with excitement. "Please hurry, I need you inside me." He laughed a little and said, "Be patient, my little slut." I moaned again, he knew my weakness. That word always turns me to goo.

I felt his hand softly caress my leg. Then, I felt his other hand touch my thigh. "Oh, yes. Higher." I felt another hand gently touch my stomach. Wait, three hands? Before I could even process, a fourth hand tickled my arm. A fifth hand began stroking my breast. A sixth on my cheek, caressing my face. I moaned loudly. What was happening? A seventh hand grabbed my other breast and pinched my nipple. Then, one more hand grabbed hold of my hair and pulled, lifting my face to meet theirs. They kissed me hard. I tasted their tongue and I could tell it was Husband. "Oh, fuck!" I wanted to take the blindfold off to see who was touching me but I knew he wouldn't let me do that.

I was confused and excited, feeling as though I was about to burst. So many hands touching me at the same time. This had always been a big fantasy of mine, ever since I realized that I had a hand fetish. I felt like I was losing my mind. The pleasure was so intense. I couldn't stop myself from moaning out. I didn't want it to end. I felt like I was floating up into the clouds.

The hands caressed my body, moving all over until they had touched every spot. Every spot, except my clit. I arched my back, begging to be touched in my sweet spot. I could feel the wetness dripping out of my cunt, teasing me further. I cried out, "Please, I need to cum." Husband laughed again, "Alright, I guess we've teased you enough."

When I felt Husband's finger slide up the slit of my pussy, I moaned loudly. "Oh, fuck! Yes!" I was so wet, his fingers glided effortlessly over my clit. He swirled around it slowly and my breath became ragged. He increased speed slightly and I arched my back in response. "Please don't stop." He sped up a little more and whispered in my ear, "Cum for me, baby." I instantly felt a wave of pleasure flow through my body. I tried to hold back but it was too strong. I moaned so loudly that even the neighbors could hear.

As I was trying to catch my breath, Husband said, "Good girl. Now, we're going to take turns fucking that sweet pussy. I hope you're ready." Husband climbed on top of me, grabbed my arms, and held them over my head. The head of his cock teased the opening to my cunt. I whined, wanting him to enter me already. "I know how much you want this. You're such a dirty little slut," he said, as he shoved his cock inside me. He fucked me hard as he kissed me passionately. I was so turned on that I squirted all over him as he fucked me. I wanted to tell him how good it felt to feel him inside me but I couldn't form the words. I just moaned with every thrust. He let go of one of my hands, allowing me to touch myself. I rubbed my clit as he continued to fuck me. I could feel his cock throbbing inside me. When I started to cum, he fucked me harder until he emptied his load deep inside me.

When Husband got up, he said, "Who's next?" My body started shaking a little. I was so nervous but incredibly excited. I felt someone else climb on top of me. He teased my clit with the head of his cock, making me moan some more. Suddenly, he lifted my legs up on his chest and shoved his cock into my pussy. He fucked me hard and fast. I could barely catch my breath. My pussy was squirting everywhere, even on my face. I licked my lips and started to rub my clit again. I heard him say, "Fuck yeah!" I began to cum around his cock as he filled me with his cum.

The second man got up and a third man replaced him. He grabbed my legs and pushed them up over my head. Then, he slid his cock inside my greedy cunt. It still wanted more. He continued to fuck me slowly and I whined. I didn't want to be teased anymore. I needed him to pound my pussy. I rocked my hips, thrusting with him, making his thrusts that much more powerful. He cried out, "Fuck, you feel so good. I can't last long when you do that." I didn't care. What I really wanted was his cum, filling me up. I began to thrust into him even harder, rubbing my very swollen clit again. My pussy tightened around his cock as I orgasmed and he lost it. He moaned loudly and emptied more cum deep inside me.

When it was the fourth man's turn, he asked, "Can I flip her over?" Husband approved, so I flipped over onto my hands and knees. I wasn't sure if I could take anymore but I didn't really have a choice. I felt him squeeze my ass, then he shoved his cock inside me. His cock was so big, I was glad he waited to go last. He grabbed my hips and thrust into me so hard. I reached under myself and touched my clit. It cried out, feeling overspent. I just needed one more orgasm. I touched it anyway, hoping it would submit. I was so wet with all of the cum that was dripping out of my pussy. I rubbed it into my clit. I thought about how slutty I was being and it made me shudder with excitement. I felt a thumb rub my asshole, gently pushing inside my ass. It pushed me over the edge. I moaned out as I came hard around his huge cock and he came with me, filling my hole even more.

When they were all done, Husband told me to lie down and spread my legs. He said, "Wow, look at all of that cum dripping out of your greedy cunt. You're such a dirty little slut. I bet you loved that." I still couldn't form words. All I could do was respond with a moan of, "Mhmmm."

Dreaming of Jack

I am trying to recover from a terrible plague that my nephew gave me at the moment. I will spare you the details. All I'm going to say is that I'm not sleeping much at night. I toss and turn in a horrible fog of uncomfortable insomnia. Somehow, in the middle of this fog, I managed to have a very hot dream last night.

There's this man, Jack, that has me pretty fucking smitten. We've been internet acquaintances for quite some time but we've been getting closer over the last month and a half. He inspired this sexy dream, so thank you, Jack.


I was driving to the airport to pick him up. His plane would be landing soon and I was filled with so much anxiety. Not just nervousness about meeting him for the first time, but also because I hate airports. They are confusing and overwhelming. I drove around freaking out and hoping that I would be able to find him without much hassle. I would be incredibly embarrassed if I got lost. Then, I saw him. He was standing there on the curb in all of his sexy glory. A smile spread across my face and I couldn't contain my excitement. I pulled up next to him, jumped out of the car, and tackled him with a huge hug. The hug turned into a small make-out session until we snapped out of it and realized that we can't just stand here all day.

We got into the car and I started to drive. I glanced down at Jack's crotch and realized that his cock was very hard. Oh, the excitement I felt at that moment was overwhelming. I found a private area and parked the car. I couldn't wait any longer to taste him. I looked him in the eyes and said, "Pull your cock out." I heard his breath catch in his throat and his eyes ignited with passion. I licked his cock from the tip all the way down the shaft, getting it nice and lubed up with my spit. Then, I took his cock deep into my mouth. It tasted as good as I had imagined. Jack ran his hand through my hair as I continued to suck his cock. I moaned in response, which caused him to moan as well. He started to breathe more heavily and said, "I want to fuck your throat." I moaned again, then I deep throated his big cock. I bobbed up and down, shoving his cock deep into my throat over and over again. I felt the tears start to fall down my cheeks. I could tell he was getting close, so I fought against my gag reflex and kept going. He moaned out, "Oh fuck, I'm going to cum!" I moaned around his cock as he shot his load down my throat. I sat up, wiped my mouth, and licked my fingers. I looked him in the eyes again and said, "Mmmm, yummy."

I quickly got back on the road so that we could get to the hotel and fuck. The need for his cock inside my pussy was intense. When we got there, we didn't even bother bringing anything in with us. There was no time for that. We went to the desk, checked in, and then hurried to the room. As soon as the door closed behind us, Jack grabbed me and pinned me to the wall. He kissed me hard, pressing his erection against me so that I could feel how much he wanted me. Our tongues tangled together in a desperate dance for more. Every flick of his tongue in my mouth was intoxicating. His kiss was driving me mad. He moved down to my neck and started to lick, suck, and bite it. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I was so turned on. I moaned and fought to get my hands free. When he let go, I wrapped my arms around him, grabbed his ass, and pulled him hard into my hips. I whispered into his ear, "I need you inside me. Right. NOW." He moaned, "Fuck, yes!" He grabbed my arms and led me to the bed where we began to hastily take each other's clothes off. He pushed me down on the bed, mounted me, and looked me in the eyes. His gaze was like fire. I bit my lip in anticipation. He slowly slid his cock into my very wet pussy. I wrapped my legs around him tightly, trying to pull him in deeper. He fucked me harder, hitting my g-spot with every stroke. I could feel my pussy juice dripping down my ass. I moaned, "Fuck! You fill me up so well. I love it!" I was getting so close. I reached down and started to rub my clit. He moaned and started to fuck me even harder. He felt my pussy tighten around his cock and said, "I need you to cum for me, Ash." I couldn't hold it back any longer. I exploded all over him. As soon as he felt my release, he shot his load deep into my pussy while moaning my name. Mmmm. It was so fucking hot.

We both collapsed on the bed. Jack reached out for me and pulled me close to him. I put my head on his chest and he held me close. At the same time, we both said, "That was amazing."

Threesomes and pegging

I've been absent for quite some time here. I kept meaning to come back, but I wasn't inspired to really put my mind to it until recently. A lot has happened in the last two years.

I had a girlfriend for a while. Let's call her Sasha. Before Sasha, I had been with other women but I had never eaten a pussy. I was very enthusiastic about trying it on her though. It was just about as amazing as I thought it would be. I also got a bonus because she is a squirter. So, every time I ate her pussy, she also squirted in my mouth. I've always been on the other side of that equation, so it was nice switching places. Unfortunately, Sasha is no longer my girlfriend. Hopefully I'll find another pussy to eat soon because I'm missing it so much.

Husband and I had a threesome with Sasha last month. It was fucking hot. It was the first time I got to watch Husband fuck another woman. We sucked his cock together, which is a pretty big fantasy of mine. I also ate her pussy while he watched, which he loved. I played with her tits, sucking and pinching her nipples, as he fucked her and watched her cum again and again. She squirted all over his cock and I loved every minute of it. I wish I had written about it when it happened so I could remember more of the details. We've also been having a lot of threesomes with Jacob but I haven't been writing about that either. Ugh. Remind me to not get distracted again.


Something I do remember the details of is the sex we had on Sunday night. Husband and I had been sexting each other all day, so by the time the night arrived, we were quite excited. I had decided that I wanted to fuck him in the ass, so I grabbed my strap-on. I put it on, got on the bed, and waited for him to join me. After he climbed on the bed, he started to suck on my nipples. He was rubbing them on the roof of his mouth with his tongue and it was driving me wild! He slipped his hand in between my legs and started to rub my clit. I was so wet that his fingers were gliding over my clit so smoothly. It felt amazing. He then started to suck the cock that I had strapped on. Oh god! I almost lost it! That is a huge fantasy of mine. I often imagine that I have a cock when I masturbate and it turns me on a lot. Watching him suck my cock while rubbing my clit was so hot. He inserted a couple fingers into my pussy and I moaned out. He continued to finger me for a while and then he started to put more fingers inside me. Next thing I knew, he was fisting me and I was gushing all over. Fuck, I squirted so much that the mattress pad was SOAKED.

After I was done cumming, I told Husband to kneel next to me. I licked the shaft of his cock all the way up to the head. I took his cock in my mouth and started to suck on it. As I made it wetter, I took it deeper into my mouth. When it was deep in my throat, I bobbed up and down, fucking my throat. He moaned out in pleasure as my eyes started to water. I reached around and started to finger his ass and continued to suck his cock while massaging his penis with my tongue. I could taste his precum and it excited me.

I asked Husband to lie down and spread his legs. I grabbed an anal toy, lubed it up, and stuck it inside his ass. I fucked him with it slowly as he moaned out in pleasure. After a while, I asked if he was ready for my cock. He smiled and enthusiastically said, "Yes!" So, I flipped him over, lubed up my cock, and inserted it slowly. It had been a while since the last time I pegged him, so he needed some time to adjust. After a while, I started to fuck him. All of his moaning was making my pussy so wet that it was dripping.

After I finished fucking him, Husband went down on me. As he licked my clit, he fucked my pussy with a glass dildo. Fuck, it felt good. I love glass toys. They slide in and out so smoothly when I'm very wet. Mmmm. He made me cum so hard. I grabbed at the sheet as I moaned out. Then, he climbed on top of me, pushed my legs over my head, and started to fuck me. He tried to convince me to let him stick a toy in my ass for some dp action. I compromised by telling him he could stick another cock in my pussy. So, he got up and grabbed another dildo. He put the dildo inside me and then slid his cock in next to it. I felt so full and I could feel so much pressure on my g-spot. I thought of a new friend that I've been talking to, Jack. Imagining that his was the other cock inside my pussy. It turned me on so much. Husband started to fuck me slowly at first. Then, I started to thrust my hips, letting him know that I wanted more. He began to fuck me hard. So hard. I couldn't stop myself from gushing everywhere. I was having so many g-spot orgasms...one right after the other. Oh god, it was so good. I reached down and started to rub my clit. When he saw I was getting close, Husband said, "Yes! Cum for me!" That sent me over the edge and we both came so hard. Best orgasm I've had in a long time. I seriously need to repeat that one with two real cocks.

Finally, the threesome I've been waiting for!

Well, it's been almost a year since the last time I wrote in here. I've been having amazing sex but I guess I just lost the motivation to write about it. I miss writing though, so I'm going to attempt to get back into it. I do have some stories to share. So, without further ado...

Jacob finally made his way into our bed. We sat next to each other on the couch and talked for a while. The sexual tension was very thick. Eventually, he leaned over and kissed me. Then, he put my hand on his crotch so I could feel how much it turned him on. I had been glancing down at it in his pants for a while. I could tell his cock was hard just by looking, but I didn't know just how hard it was until I felt it. He was so rock hard that it made my clit start to tingle. He said, "See what you do to me?" I felt myself start to blush. I wanted to hide my face. Why was he making me feel so shy? I think it was because I had been waiting for this for so long that it felt like it wasn't real. I asked what he felt up for. His answer was, "Anything." I asked Husband if he wanted to have some fun with Jacob and he said yes.

So, we headed to the bedroom. Husband lit some candles and turned off the lights. I told them to take off their pants and lie down on the bed. I thought about taking off my clothes as well but since Jacob has a thing for big asses covered in jeans, I knew he would want to caress my ass in my jeans. So, I left them on. I climbed on the bed and crawled up to Husband. I kissed him seductively, swirling my tongue around his. Then, I moved over to Jacob and kissed him. I could tell he was very turned on. His breathing was already somewhat heavy. I went back to Husband and started licking his stomach. I moved down further and further until I reached his cock. I licked it and then began to suck it slowly. As I sucked Husband's cock, Jacob started to caress my ass. I knew he would love my ass in those jeans. I wore them just for him. After he was done playing with my ass, Jacob laid back down and I started to suck his cock. He moaned out as I deep throated his large meat. I went back and forth doing this for some time, sucking cock and making out with them. Then I decided that I wanted some attention for myself. So, I laid down on the bed and they started to caress my body all over. The feeling of both of their hands on my body at the same time was spectacular. I took off my pants and they both started to rub my pussy on top of my panties. Then, they removed my panties. I had fantasized about Jacob's fingers touching my clit for so long. I couldn't believe it was about to actually happen. I held my breath as I waited for his fingers to make their way to my sweet spot. Then, it happened. I moaned out and bit my lip. Husband was rubbing my thigh at the same time. It felt so good that I didn't want it to stop. They took turns rubbing my clit and then Jacob crawled down to the end of the bed and started to lick my pussy. Husband continued to run his hands all over my body. Then, I pulled him close to me so that I could kiss him. I made out with Husband as Jacob continued to dine on my wet pussy. It felt so good and I was very close to cumming, but then he stopped.

At that point, I told Husband that I wanted him inside me. So, I moved to the edge of the bed and got on my hands and knees. Jacob moved next to me and I started to suck his cock once again while Husband fucked me with his amazing cock. The angle was a little odd, so I stopped sucking for a bit. Then, Jacob hopped up on his knees and started to fuck my mouth as Husband continued to pound my pussy. That turned me on so much. I moaned around Jacob's cock as Husband hit my g-spot over and over. I could tell Jacob really liked that. A lot. I started to cum, which caused Husband and Jacob to cum as well. After we shared an orgasm together, we all collapsed. I think the excitement and nervousness really took it out of all of us. But it was so much fun. A few days later, Jacob texted me and said his head was still spinning from the experience. That made me very happy. I'm hoping he decides to come over again soon and we get to play even more. I really can't wait!

Although I am very excited about having fun with Jacob, I am a little nervous as well. One reason being that I'm a squirter and I'm not sure how he will feel about that if it actually happens. On Monday night, I almost drowned Husband when he was going down on me and I gushed all over his face. Husband said he liked it, but I feel like that may be a little embarrassing for me if that happened to Jacob. I am trying to just let that go though and trust that he will enjoy it and not be put off by it. I did tell him that it was a possibility so that he wasn't shocked though. Haha.


On Wednesday night, Husband must have been feeling very dominant. We got into bed in the spooning position, with me being the small spoon. We had a long conversation about everything that had happened with Jacob. We discussed how we felt about it and then talked about what we both wanted to happen in the future with him. After we finished talking, Husband grabbed my leg and draped it over his legs. Then, he started to rub my clit with his fingers. He said, "Wow, you are very wet. Did talking about that stuff turn you on?" I said, "Yes, very much." As he continued to rub my clit, I could hear how wet I was. It turned me on even more. He slid his cock into my pussy and started to fuck me slowly. He said, "I'm going to keep rubbing your clit but you can't cum unless you beg me first." I agreed. At this point, I was so turned on that my clit was rock hard. I was very close to cumming and he could tell. He said, "Do you think you can resist cumming if I keep going?" I wasn't sure, but I took that as a challenge. So, I tried my hardest to hold off the orgasm. He started to fuck me harder and rub my clit faster. He was pushing me so close to the edge. I kept it under control somehow though. He said, "If you cum without my permission, I'm going to punish you." I asked, "What will my punishment be?" He answered, "I'm going to turn you over and take your ass." That scared me and turned me on at the same time. He started to fuck me faster and harder, knowing that he was pushing me closer to orgasm. I thought for a moment, "Maybe I should ask to cum now. I'm really close." Then, as soon as I finished that thought, I started to cum. Fuck. When the orgasm finished, Husband said, "All you had to do was beg me to cum. But you didn't. Now, I have to punish you." I didn't respond. What could I say? He flipped me over onto my back, grabbed the lube, and then slowly slid his cock into my ass as I rubbed my clit. He fucked me slowly at first. Once I was relaxed, I pulled my legs up over my head and told him to fuck me faster and harder. I was close to cumming again, so I begged him to cum in my ass. As I began to cum, I told him to shoot his load deep into my ass, which is exactly what he did. At that moment, I was kind of glad that I had accidentally lost control and had an orgasm without asking for permission first. I'm pretty sure he was as well.


Here's to hoping that I can get back into this writing thing again. I'd really like to continue to do this regularly. I do have a lot of pretty amazing sex. I just need to make it a point to write about it. That is my goal. So, make sure you check back here again soon. Now, I'm off to join Husband in bed.

The shower is the perfect place to get dirty

It has recently come to my attention that I do not have sex in the shower enough. Over the weekend, I made an attempt to fix this issue. I invited Husband to join me in the shower, which he did gladly. After washing a bit, I started to caress Husband's body. He closed his eyes and got lost in the feeling of my hands running all over his body. I leaned in and started to make out with him. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer. I could feel his hard cock poking between my legs. As he got more and more excited, he grabbed my ass and pulled me in tighter. Our tongues circled around and danced with each other as we continued to kiss. I pulled away and started to kiss his neck gently. He moaned softly, melting like butter. I licked up and down his neck, then suddenly I bit down. I could feel his knees get weak as he moaned out in pleasure. I kissed his neck again, making him yearn for more. I continued to tease him with my lips and tongue, then I bit him again, harder. He moaned loudly and squeezed my ass, violently pulling me into his body. I loved the feeling of being wanted so badly.

I caressed Husband's body as I went down on my knees. I ran my hands down his sides, over his hips, and down his inguinal crease. I looked up at him and then wrapped my lips around his throbbing cock. I went halfway down on it, then back up a few times, teasing him. When I felt him begging for more, I went all the way down on his cock, shoving it into the back of my throat. My lips tightened around his cock and I sucked harder as I continued to bob up and down.

After a while, I stood up and started to kiss him again. I wanted him to feel how much I wanted his cock. I am pretty sure he felt it. Suddenly, he turned me around, bent me over and rammed his cock into my wet pussy. He fucked me so hard, causing me to moan out loudly. The sound of our wet bodies slapping together excited me. I stood up to catch my breath and he grabbed a handful of my hair, pulled me against him and wrapped his arm around my neck. He held me tight against him as he began to suck and bite at my neck. I moaned and felt him grinding against my ass. He caressed my body with his hands. The hot water from the shower had made my skin very sensitive, so every touch was intensified. It felt amazing.

He bent me over, grabbed hold of my hips and fucked me even harder than before. I rhythmically moved my hips in sync with his thrusts. He slowed down and I could feel his cock throbbing inside me. I knew he was close to cumming. I tightened the muscles in my pussy. He moaned out and started to fuck me very hard. It wasn't long before he was shooting his load deep inside me.

We got out of the shower, dried off and went into the bedroom. I climbed into bed and Husband asked if I would mind if he fucked me more with the strap-on. Of course I wanted to be fucked more! So, he put it on and climbed on the bed, kneeling between my legs. He started kissing all over my body. From my legs, to my thighs, to my stomach, to my breasts. I felt his hands on the inside of my thigh, moving down slowly until he was rubbing my clit. I arched my back and moaned a little. He continued until I couldn't take it anymore. I needed to be fucked again. I moved his hand away and pulled him close to me. He began to fuck me with the toy cock. I raised my legs above my head. I could feel my G-spot being hit over and over. I started to rub my clit and then squeezed his arms as I orgasmed.

By this time, Husband was ready for round two. He took off the strap-on and started to fuck me once again. He started off fast, which felt good, but what I really wanted was very slow thrusts. I made him slow down. I could feel his cock moving in and out, massaging my pussy walls in just the right places. Oh god, his cock is shaped perfectly. I moved my hips in rhythm with his thrusts. I felt like I was going to explode. The feeling was so amazing. I felt my body start to tense up. I wrapped my legs tightly around him as I waited for the pleasure release. My body yearned for it. I focused on the feeling of his hard cock moving in and out of my very wet pussy, and then I lost it. My whole body tingled with pleasure as I moaned out. Fuck, that was good.

Shower sex. Yes, I do recommend it. I just wish my detachable shower head had a longer reach so that it could join in the fun.

So many new experiences

Wow, it's been a while. A lot has happened since the last time I wrote in here. I've been going to kink parties pretty regularly. I've made some really good friends from the group. I can't begin to tell you how nice it is to be able to just be myself around them. They make me feel at ease, which is really great.

Since I am so at ease at these parties, I have been experiencing a lot of new things. I wrote a while back that I had experienced cold branding for the first time. Well, I did it again soon after. I got the most amazing cold brand ever. I am actually very sad that it is no longer there.

I got this one on my back as well.

I also experienced fire play at this party. Oh my, there are truly no words to accurately describe it. It started with me lying on my back on top of a massage table. Master T put flash cotton on my breasts, stomach and pubic area, then he lit it on fire. It felt so great. I wanted more. He got out two fire batons, lit them, and hit my body with them over and over again. I closed my eyes and got lost in the incredible feeling. I especially loved it when he hit my breasts. After that, Master T asked me if I wanted more. Of course I did! So, he got the fire glove, lit it, and then rubbed it all over my body. I moaned out in pleasure as I felt the heat all over my body. I couldn't form complete thoughts. I just melted there. When he was finished with that, he asked if I wanted to do fire flogging. I was very nervous, but I wanted it so badly. So, I put the fire-proof hood on, stood at the end of the massage table, spread my legs and bent over, laying the top half of my body flat against the table. When I heard him light the flogger, I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I felt the flogger land on my back. Over and over again. It was so hot but felt so good. I couldn't help but moan as my whole body filled with pleasure. He would hit my back with it and then he would hit my pussy with it a few times before having to light it again. I'm not sure how long he kept going. Time stood still as I laid there. Honestly, it was one of the most incredible experiences I've ever had. I have been dying to do it again but I haven't had the chance. I am just hoping another chance comes soon.

Another thing that I did recently is needle play. I had been wanting to try it for quite some time. I used to do needle play on myself when I was a teenager, but it wasn't sterile or safe at all. I also have had a few body piercings. So, I knew I would enjoy it. I was still quite nervous though. I sat in a chair and Husband sat next to me. He held my hand through the whole thing, which was incredibly intimate. I got 13 25g needles poked into my right breast. Like I said, I knew I would enjoy it, but I never could have guessed just how much. I moaned every time it went through my skin. When the needle went in, I felt a rush of warmness all over and then on the way out, my body broke out in goosebumps. That happened with every needle. It was pretty damn amazing. The needles were tiny because it was my first time. Next time, I am going to try the 23g and maybe the 20g. I want to work up to doing a corset piecing on my back. Here is a picture:

I am so thankful to all of my new friends. Without them, I'm not sure if I would have experienced any of these new things that I so dearly love. So, to them, thank you for accepting me.

Fisting is a hard limit for me...or not

Last night, I had quite an experience. It started with Husband spanking me with the new paddle that he bought recently. I laid on the bed with my ass up in the air. He spanked me for a few minutes, just to try it out. It was late, so we decided to leave the heavy foreplay for another night. Or at least I thought so.

Husband began to rub my clit with his fingers. I relaxed down into the bed, but still kept my ass up in the air. I felt him sticking his fingers inside me. Usually I just like one finger, but he has been experimenting with more lately. I just went with it. He kept taking his fingers out, sucking the pussy juices off of them and then putting them back in. It was hard to tell exactly what he was doing. My face was down on the mattress and he was behind me, so I couldn't see. My pussy kept feeling fuller and fuller as time went on. It no longer felt like fingers were inside me. I wondered, "Is this a new toy he hasn't told me about?" I pushed the thought away and again, just went with it. As the feeling of fullness increased, so did the pain. It hurt a lot, but it felt good at the same time. I was confused because I wasn't sure what was happening. I felt the object plunge deeper and deeper into my pussy. It made me moan out in pleasure. I could hear Husband breathing hard. Whatever he was doing, it sure was exciting him. That excited me more. Finally, he asked, "Do you like feeling my fist inside you?" What?? I couldn't even be bothered with that thought. He was still rubbing my clit and I was so close to orgasm. He called me a slut and a whore. That was the first time he's ever used those words and I loved it. I let myself go and began to cum all over his hand.

Afterwards, he slowly removed his hand from my pussy and then shoved his cock inside. He fucked me for a few minutes and then demanded that I climb on top of him. I did as I was told, even though I was quite sore. I slid his cock into my pussy as he moaned in pleasure. He held me close to him and started to fuck me. He fucked me hard and it was only a matter of seconds before I gushed all over him. My G-spot was very sensitive and it didn't take much to push me over the edge. He told me to kiss him as he let me catch my breath for a minute. Then, he started to fuck me again. Much to my surprise, I soon started to cum, gushing even more. I thought for sure that was all I had in me. Husband demanded that I cum one more time. So, he started to fuck me again. This time, as I was cumming and gushing all over him, he shot his load deep inside my pussy.

We caught our breath and then headed to the bathroom to clean up. In shock, I asked, "How far did you have your hand in there?" He said, "Up to my wrist." Holy shit. I was blown away. I had always said that was a hard limit. He knew this. Yet, I enjoyed it. I had an orgasm. What does that even mean? Do I wish he had asked me before trying it? Yes, a part of me does. At the same time, I realize that if he had asked for permission, I would have shot him down immediately out of fear. It would have never been something that I'd experience if it were left up to me. So, maybe it's a good thing? I don't know. I'm still processing it all. I was just hoping that writing about it in here would help with that.

My First Kink Party

Husband and I went to our first kink party on Friday. It was pretty damn amazing. When we first arrived, I was feeling quite anxious. There were a lot of people there that I didn't know and I'm not good at socializing. I hid in the corner for a while until I felt comfortable enough to roam around the house. I did a lot of smiling and hoping that people would approach me. I wanted to talk to people, but I just couldn't find the right words. Why do I always fail at basic human interaction?

Eventually, the time came to move down to the "dungeon" and I got a little nervous. I didn't know what to expect, but I was very excited. I just followed my friend Jimbo, who is much more experienced than I. While I have been doing somewhat-kinky things in the bedroom for about 15 years now, I am very new to the scene itself. I don't know as much as I'd like to. For example, at the age of 16, I would put a collar and leash on my boyfriend and walk him around in public. Yet, I didn't truly know what it meant to be collared until recently. I was always meant to be in this scene. I just never had any connections with it until I met Jimbo. He has been great at helping introduce me to things. That being said, since I am still learning, if I misuse any BDSM terms in this post, I apologize.

As we entered the dungeon, I saw a woman tying a man to a Saint Andrew's Cross. I smiled and walked past them. As I came around the corner, I saw a bunch of people cuddling on two rugs. One rug was made of alpaca fur and the other of buffalo fur. They looked so amazingly comfortable that I wanted to lay on them as well, but then I saw something going on over in the corner. There were two people who were doing cold branding with dry ice. This wasn't something that I had considered doing because I hate cold things, but I was drawn to it for some reason. I watched person after person line up and get branded with a very cold metal cookie cutter. I winced every time, just imagining how much that must hurt. People kept telling me that it wasn't that bad. That it looked worse than it actually was. I still wasn't convinced. Husband decided he was going to get one. So, I watched him do it and then asked him how it felt. He said it was just a little sting, which made me feel better about it. I never thought I'd do it, but I was suddenly overcome with the urge to go for it. I picked out a small star and waited for it to get cold in the alcohol/dry ice slush. When it was time, I showed the girl where I wanted it on my arm, held Husband's hand and took a deep breath. If I'm being totally honest, it did hurt a little bit, but nothing compared to getting a good spanking. It stung for about 5 minutes afterward and then it just went numb. The verdict: I loved it! Three days later, it doesn't hurt at all and it's still visible. I'm not sure if the pressure of putting it on made the bruises pop up or if it was Husband slapping my arm that did it, but it looks kind of cool with the purple on it.

After I got my first branding, someone picked up some dry ice and rubbed it up and down my arm. That was my limit. I do not like coldness. AT ALL. I winced and pulled away. I think I'll just stick to the cookie cutters. I looked over at the Saint Andrews Cross again. This time, a naked woman was tied to it and a man was spanking her and running a knife across her back. I watched them play for a while and then Husband decided he wanted another cold brand. He picked out a larger one this time and I held his hand as he got it done. Obviously, he liked it as well.

We heard Jimbo say that he was going to do an energy pull. I had never heard of that before, so I was very curious. We followed him to another room and watched as he had two needles placed on the left side of his chest in the shape of an X. Then, the same thing was repeated on the right side. Another friend of his had the same done to her, and then they were tethered together with rubber bands placed on the needles. They slowly pulled against each other, getting further and further apart as time went on. It looked very intense. I definitely wasn't ready for that yet, but it's something I'm considering doing in the future.

After watching Jimbo do his energy pull for a while, I decided I wanted another cold brand. We walked back over to the dry ice and this time I picked a larger one in the shape of a bat. I took off my shirt, held Husband's hand, took a deep breath, and braced myself. It actually didn't hurt as bad as the one on my arm, but it's definitely darker and still a tiny bit sensitive when I touch it. I ran to the bathroom so I could look at it in the mirror. It was so exciting! It filled me with so much positive energy. I loved it. I wanted more, but I decided I should pace myself.

When I left the bathroom, I saw a girl writhing and moaning while sitting on some kind of contraption that was being controlled by another woman whom she was making out with. After asking someone, I found out that she was riding a Sybian, which is a masturbation device that vibrates and has optional attachments. How had I never heard of one of these before?? I watched her have orgasm after orgasm on that thing. I was in awe. I couldn't stop watching. Husband convinced me that I needed to try it, so I did. I climbed on and he started it up. I felt the vibration throughout my whole body. Husband slowly turned up the intensity while I lost myself in the sensation. I kept seeing people walking by and watching me. I couldn't even be bothered. As the vibrations reached the highest level of intensity, I tried to hold back my orgasm. I began to feel the pleasure wash over my body and I couldn't hold back any longer. I started to cum, moaning out loud so that the whole room could hear. I didn't even care. It was just amazing.

I stood up and stumbled over to the alpaca rug. On my way over there, I saw a naked woman on the massage table enjoying some electro play with a man that had a Violet Wand. I watched her spread her pussy lips and he teased her clit with the wand. I watched for a little bit and then I laid down on the rug. It was so incredibly soft that I just wanted to snuggle it forever. Husband sat next to me, rubbed my back, and played with my hair as I relaxed. I kept running my hands through the alpaca fur. I wished I had the nerve to get naked and rub my body all over it. Unfortunately, I need a bit more time to warm up to everyone before I start getting naked. Soon, Jimbo came over and cuddled with us on the rug as well. That was a really nice bonding moment for me. After a good while of relaxing on the rug, Jimbo went over to get some cold branding done. Husband decided he wanted one more, so we went over to the dry ice again. This time he got a large chain on his arm. It was much more intense than the other ones.

By this time, the man with the electro play toys had made his way over by us. He asked if we'd like to play with him. I wasn't that interested but I knew Husband would be. I tried it once and then I was done because I don't like that feeling. Husband did it for a bit longer. He very much enjoys the sensation of electricity. I'm sure it's something that he will be into trying more at a later time.

While Husband was playing with the electricity, I was watching a woman who was tied to the Saint Andrews Cross and getting flogged. The person beating her was going at it like crazy and she was moaning very loudly. I felt a twinge of jealousy. I imagined Husband tying me up and flogging me. It turned me on quite a bit. That's definitely going on the list of things to try. After the person was done flogging the woman, they put the flogger between her legs and rubbed her clit with it until she came. I had never thought of doing that, but it was pretty amusing. I definitely enjoyed watching that.

We heard that someone was doing fire play, so we tried to find where this was happening at, but we had no luck. It had either not happened, we couldn't find where it was going on, or it had already finished by the time we knew about it. I was quite sad because I really wanted to try it. We came back down to the dungeon and there was a different naked woman laying on the massage table. This woman was getting needles inserted into her breasts in a circle around her nipple. I really wanted to try the needle play, but every time I went to check it out, someone was already in line to do it next. So, I gave up on that until later. I did watch the woman for quite some time though. Earlier in the night, I saw a woman getting a corset piercing with the needles. THAT is what I really want to do. That would be just amazing. I know I'd love it. Husband isn't a fan of needles unless they involve getting tattoos. I am hoping to convince him to do an energy pull with me though.

At this point, there was free space on the bison rug, so I decided to try it out. I laid down on my stomach and Husband climbed on top of my legs. He massaged my ass for a while and I enjoyed the hell out of it, though it was turning me on a lot. Jimbo came over and laid down on the alpaca rug directly in front of me. We talked for a bit and then three people started beating him with random instruments. At one point, there were six Wartenberg wheels running along his back. So many things were used to stimulate his nerves and he enjoyed the hell out of it. He was moaning loudly right in my face and I was loving it. Being able to watch him scene was a really great experience. I wished that I could get even a portion of the attention he was getting. Alas, I am too shy to seek it out. Maybe I will be less shy next time.

After watching Jimbo scene, we decided it was time to go home. We were there for seven hours and I hated leaving. The time just flew by so fast. I've been trying to find the place where I fit in all my life. Most people don't understand me because I'm hyper sexual. But these people...I think they could definitely get me. I think I could get along with them really well if I just learned how to communicate like a normal human being. I have so many hopes for the future. I want to get closer to everyone. To be accepted in this kink family. To feel like I finally belong somewhere. This is my safe place. Who would have thought? I honestly cannot wait for the next kink party. There are so many things that I want to experience. I will definitely be counting down the days.

Restraint and Orgasm Denial

Saturday was date night for Husband and I. We got to hang out with Trystan for a while, which was great. I wish he was naked during our hangout time, but I'll take what I can get. Besides, my imagination works pretty well. ;)

When we got home that night, Husband showed me what he had brought home from work. It was a bunch of cable ties. I had mentioned earlier in the week that I was interested in trying them because I never had before. So, I was of course instantly turned on.

I took off all of my clothes except for my bra and panties, then I laid down on the bed. Husband laid next to me and placed his hand on my breast, massaging it slowly. He then ran his hand down my side softly and stopped at my crotch. I arched my back as he rubbed my sweet spot on top of my panties. It made me feel like a teenager, heavy petting on top of clothes. It turned me on so much and I was loving it. I moaned and felt myself get wetter. Soon my panties were so wet that Husband couldn't resist sticking his fingers inside me. He put his hand under my panties and fucked me with his finger. I moaned louder and dug my nails into his back. Suddenly, he stopped, sucked my pussy juice off his finger, ripped my panties off, tossed them across the room and then rubbed my clit with his fingers. My pussy was so wet that his fingers were gliding over my clit like it was made of silk. It didn't take long before I was cumming...so hard. I dug my nails into his back once again and moaned loudly as my back arched.

Husband licked his finger one last time, jumped on top of me and grabbed a cable tie. He ordered me to put my hands together, then he wrapped the tie around my wrists and tightened it. He put my hands over my head and held them down with one hand. He shoved his cock in my pussy and fucked me hard. I was so turned on that my G-spot was very swollen. I felt so close to orgasm already. He fucked me harder but stopped suddenly when I was about to cum. I let out a loud sigh and he said, "You want to cum, don't you?" I said, "Yes, please." He laughed and said, "No, you have to wait." He began fucking me again, softer this time. I lifted my legs higher, trying to get him to hit my G-spot harder. He said, "Oh, you're very tricky." He held me down harder and I tried resisting. There was no way I could get away. He started fucking me harder and I tensed up. I was so close to cumming, then he stopped yet again. Oh my! It wasn't fair! I wanted to cum so badly.

At this point, I knew it wasn't going to take much to make me cum. I was just hoping that I could get it done before Husband stopped again. I started to think of ways that I could outsmart him. He began fucking me slowly, and I focused on the feeling of his cock sliding in and out of my very wet pussy. My body filled with goosebumps as I enjoyed the feeling. I wrapped my legs around him and pulled him inside me harder. He asked me if I was ready to cum and I moaned, "Yes!" He let go of my arms and told me to pretend that someone else was holding me down. So, I did as I was told. He grabbed my legs, lifting them toward my head, and started fucking me harder than before. He was fucking me so very hard that it was forcing moans out of my mouth. I felt my orgasm building and then it released. I started squirting all over Husband, and then I felt it start squirting all over me as well. It landed in my eye, but I couldn't be bothered with that. I just closed my eyes and finished the orgasm. Husband grabbed my hands, cut the cable tie and ordered me to touch myself. I started rubbing my clit as he continued to fuck me. A few seconds later, I started cumming again. Oh, it was so glorious. We both collapsed and then Husband asked, "Who were you imagining that was holding you down?" I said, "Oh, I was imagining it was Trystan." He said, "I knew you would." Something tells me he did that on purpose. Regardless, I loved it. Very much. I had marks on my wrists afterward, but nothing that lasted until the next day. I think next time, we will definitely make it tighter and see how that goes. I love when I have marks the next day.

Surprise, no panties!

Saturday night was the monthly burlesque show that Husband and I attend. I was feeling extra randy that night, so I decided to wear something extra sexy. I went for a shirt that hangs off the shoulder, a short black skirt and crotchless fishnets. That's right, no panties. Needless to say, Husband was quite excited when he found out.

Throughout the night, Husband would occasionally put his hand up my skirt and touch my pussy. When I went to the bathroom, he texted me, "Loving the scent on my fingertips." I couldn't help but giggle when I read that. I was hoping that we could do more, but the location of our seats just wasn't good for that. So, we will definitely be revisiting that idea in the future.

When we got home, Husband promptly led me to the couch and bent me over. He gently ran his finger up and down the slit of my pussy lips a few times. He said, "Mmmm, you're so wet" as he slipped his finger into my pussy and fucked me with it. I started to moan, then I heard his pants unzip. He shoved his cock into my pussy and fucked me so very hard. I could hear how juicy my pussy was as he rammed his cock in and out of it. I tightened my muscles and he moaned, "God, you feel so good." I pushed back against him as he continued to fuck my hungry hole.

Suddenly, Husband pulled his cock out of my pussy and got down on his knees. He licked my clit and started to finger my pussy again. I rocked my hips in rhythm with his strokes. I felt his thumb touch my asshole and then he gently inserted it. Now, he was fucking two of my holes with the same hand. I wanted to cum so badly but he was having fun teasing me. He would bring me to the point right before orgasm and then stop. Over and over again. I was losing my mind. I began to whine and he said, "I love when your clit is this swollen." He continued to finger me, hitting my clit with his knuckles with every stroke. It didn't take long before I was cumming, so hard. My G-spot and clit released at the same time and I moaned loudly. It felt so good.

After I caught my breath, Husband led me to our bedroom. He grabbed my face and kissed me passionately. I could tell he wanted me badly. He pushed me down onto the edge of the bed, lifted my legs and started to fuck me again. I put my feet on his chest and lifted my ass so that his cock would hit my G-spot. I started to rub my clit and rock my hips. I heard him start to moan and it pushed me over the edge. My pussy tightened as my G-spot and clit both exploded in pleasure. Husband came with me, shooting his hot load deep into my pussy. He stopped for a moment and then started fucking me again. He wanted me to cum once more. So, I rubbed my clit again. He lifted my legs higher and I could feel his cock so deep inside me. He fucked me harder and I could feel myself coming closer to the edge. He said, "Cum for me" and I did as I was told.

Complete satisfaction. That is what Husband always gives me. He is pretty amazing. I wish everyone had a sex partner like him. He loves to please me and I love to please him. I swear we were made for each other. Ah, happiness.

Sucking and Fucking

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Feel free to masturbate all you want

When I was a teenager, I used to fantasize about posing nude in a magazine. I thought about it very seriously for a few years, but it never happened. I loved the thought of random people masturbating to my photos. In fact, I was pretty obsessed with that thought for a while. I used to have a lot of phone sex. Between the ages of 16 and 18, I was doing it at least four times per week. I had a list of about five people who I would regularly call. They all loved my moan and always wanted to hear it. I got off on that. They weren't masturbating to my picture, but they were still masturbating while thinking about me. While listening to my voice. That was my favorite way to pass the time. I loved all of the attention.

This all still excites me today. I no longer have phone sex like I used to and I'll probably never have a body worthy of being photographed nude, but I still fantasize about it from time to time. I think the compromise that I've made in all of this is my blog. I get so excited when I think about all of the people who may read it, get turned on and then touch themselves while thinking about the things that I've written. The possibility that they will get off on the things that I have done. Oh my, that excites me so much. I love the thought of people cumming because of me. It makes me feel powerful and sexy.

This is also the reason that I've considered posting pictures in this blog in the past. Adding more things that people may get off on excites me even more. I'm not exactly comfortable with my body though, so I'm not sure that it will ever happen. I have also been seriously considering trying to write an erotic story with the intent to get it published somewhere. I know the traffic on my blog probably isn't that high. At least not as high as I'd like it to be (that means you should share with a friend...or six!). The possibility of getting a story published in a magazine sounds really awesome though. A lot more people would see it and that would make me very happy. Maybe I will do that one day.


I guess I can't leave you without a sexy story, so I will tell you about what I did last night with my husband.

I have been upset about some things for the last couple days. So, Husband told me to make a list of the things I want him to do to me in hopes that he could take my mind off of things and help me feel better. I sent the list to him via text message and he said he was going to do those things last night. I laid down on the bed, face down, then he climbed on top of me. Once he started touching my body, I felt something come over me. I no longer wanted to do those things that sounded so good a few hours before. I asked him, "Do you want your cock inside me?" When he said yes, I responded with, "Then shove it in there and test it out. See how it feels." He slid his cock inside me and said, "It feels so wet and tight." I didn't want him to stop. He fucked me for a few minutes while I rocked my hips in motion with his thrusts, then I had an idea. I pushed him off of me, told him to lay down on the bed, and then I climbed on top of him and straddled his cock. I leaned down and kissed him passionately while I slowly slid his cock across my clit over and over again. My clit responded by getting swollen and hard. I wanted him inside me so badly and I could tell he wanted the same. I quickly shoved his cock into my wet pussy and rode him hard. I tried different angles, looking for the one that would hit my G-spot perfectly. When I found it, I started to go faster and harder. I knew I was about to cum. As my pussy tightened, Husband moaned out and then my G-spot exploded in pleasure. I gushed a little bit and then took a break for a few seconds.

Husband started to fuck me again, thrusting upward into my pussy. Despite the gushing that had just occurred, my G-spot was still very swollen. He kept hitting it. Harder and harder. Oh my, I couldn't take it anymore. I grabbed my tits and closed my eyes, waiting for it to happen. I came so hard that I couldn't control myself. I gushed all over him and then he came inside me as well. He didn't stop. He kept fucking me. How was my G-spot still so swollen?? I didn't know if I had the strength to cum again, but I didn't have a choice. He grabbed my tits and fucked me harder. Fuck, it felt so good that there are no words to describe it accurately. I felt my pussy tighten and I knew it was coming. Oh god! I moaned loudly and gushed all over him again. There was so much fluid coming out of my pussy. Husband moaned, "Fuck yeah!" as it flowed all over his stomach, ass and legs. He loved it so much and of course I did as well. That was definitely an amazing orgasm. Maybe we can repeat that one tonight?

Shots of cum for the both of us

I've been fantasizing about Trystan a lot lately. He joins Husband and I in the bedroom pretty often now. I think all three of us are happy about that. Things have gone from me thinking that nothing would ever happen between Trystan and I because he's gay to him actually wanting to have sex with me. What? How? I don't know, but I'm not going to question it. I just say "Hell fucking yeah!" and enjoy it. It's just because I'm so damn irresistible. ;)

This past weekend, I told Trystan that I had been fantasizing about him cumming in my mouth again. He came over on Monday night, so I thought that would be the perfect time for him to do that. However, I didn't want to steal him away from Husband too much either. So, I decided to go with the flow and see where it took us. Things started with me going down on Husband in the middle of a candle-lit conversation in bed. I started to suck his cock and then Trystan quickly followed. We both licked and sucked Husband's cock together. I ran my fingernails up and down his legs, making him writhe and moan out in pleasure. It was turning me on so much that I could feel my pussy getting very wet. I let Trystan take over sucking his cock and I started to lick Husband's side, down to his hip and then down his inguinal crease. I love the taste of his skin and it's so soft and smooth in those places. Mmmm. Trystan let me take over again and stood next to Husband who then started to suck his cock. I continued to suck Husband's cock as I also watched him suck Trystan's. It was so hot that my clit started to tingle and I moaned. I wanted to be touched too, so I laid down next to Husband and Trystan went back down to suck his cock. Husband started to make out with me and then Trystan came up to join us. All three of us were licking and kissing each other's mouths at the same time. Then, Trystan started to make out with just me. I actually got some good tongue action this time, which was extremely exciting. Trystan hasn't been making out with much tongue, which is the way that I used to be as well. People who have tried to swallow my tongue, eat my whole head or drooled all over me while making out made me not enjoy kissing. I spent about five years not kissing much because of that. I started to enjoy it a lot more over the last couple years and now I look forward to it again. It's nice being able to get turned on from just a kiss. Husband and Trystan both turn me on with their kisses.

After making out a bit, Trystan laid down on the bed and Husband started to suck his cock. I watched him and got turned on even though I was slightly jealous. I think Husband realized that I wanted to taste it too, so he asked, "Would you like to share?" Of course! You don't have to ask me twice! I went down and started to lick and suck Trystan's cock. Tongues running down his shaft, touching one another, then back up to meet at the top. We made out a bit over Trystan's cock. Husband grabbed my hair, pulled it, then shoved my head down onto Trystan's big cock. It went deep into my throat and I sucked it for a while. Husband watched very closely as I bobbed up and down. After a while, Husband took over again. While I sat back and watched, Trystan grabbed a handful of my hair and pulled on it hard. I moaned out and he did it again. Oh my, that was so fucking hot. Husband sucked Trystan's cock until it exploded in his mouth. Then, he kissed me and transferred some of the cum to my mouth. I licked my lips and said, "Mmmm. Thank you for sharing." It was so good and I was happy to at least get a taste even if he didn't cum in my mouth.

I laid down once again as Trystan and Husband made out some more. Then, Husband climbed on top of me and kissed his way down my body. He started to lick my clit and I closed my eyes to focus on the feeling of his tongue on my lady bits. He inserted a finger into my pussy and started to fuck me with it. Trystan got closer to me and I could hear him breathing in my ear. It turned me on so much. I started getting close to cumming, so Husband started to fuck me harder with his finger. I moaned and pinched one of my nipples between my fingers, then I started to cum. An amazing release of sexual tension. Oh my god. It was great. Trystan pulled Husband close to him and made out with him again, tasting his pussy flavored lip gloss. I smiled and got turned on even more.

Husband started to make out with me again, then shoved his cock into my very wet pussy. Trystan grabbed my hand and held it as Husband fucked me. I ran my fingers over his hand and fingers. Mmmm. God, I love his hands so much. I tightened my pussy as Husband continued to fuck me harder. Trystan touched both of our bodies, heightening the pleasure that we were feeling. I felt Husband's cock ramming my G-spot over and over and I began to breathe heavy. I wrapped my legs around him and squeezed tight. Husband fucked me even harder as we both came together. My pussy gushed all over him as his cock simultaneously filled it with cum. After we were finished, my body continued to convulse slightly and my pussy kept tightening around his cock. We both moaned every time it happened. Husband finally pulled out and went to the bathroom to clean up.

I noticed Trystan's cock was hard again. He said that he was going to just let it go because everyone was tired, but I didn't want that to happen. I offered to help and he turned me down. When Husband got back into the room, he said he was going to make me cum one more time. He laid next to me and started to rub my clit with his fingers. My clit was so sensitive and I was so wet that it didn't take long before I was cumming. The more comfortable I get with Trystan, the faster I can acheive orgasm, which is awesome. After my last orgasm, I mentioned Trystan's cock needing some more attention. Husband told me that I should suck him off, so I jumped on that! In my head I was thinking, "Yay! I got my wish!" So, Husband made out with Trystan as I sucked his cock. I was at an odd angle, so I was concerned that I wasn't doing very well, but soon Trystan was cumming in my mouth. I sucked his cock until I knew I had gotten every bit of his sweet juices in my mouth and then I swallowed it. Mmmm. What a way to end the night! That's definitely something I'd like to replay again in the future.

My first foursome experience

On Saturday night, my whole poly family (Husband, Trystan, Kirsten and myself) went to see a Halloween burlesque/drag strip show together. It was really wonderful to have all of us together. The show was great and lots of boobies were seen. Earlier in the night, Husband, Trystan and I went to dinner together as well. Trystan was dressed as Captain Jack Sparrow for the show and when we were leaving, he told me that he was planning to give us a strip show when we got back to his place (something that I had requested of him a while back). I spent the rest of the night looking forward to it. He looks so hot as a pirate. Though, I have to admit that I still prefer him nude.

Now, back to the show. I got to see my favorite burlesque dancer perform. That made me very happy because she took a couple months off from performing and I had really missed seeing her boobs dance. Anyway, I spent the whole intermission making out with Kirsten, which was awesome. Her lips are so amazing and yummy. Husband took a picture of us while we were making out and it's actually really hot. I keep looking at it and then closing my eyes and fantasizing about her. At one point, she was also running her hand up and down my leg, which was really turning me on.

When the show started back up, someone danced to the song Sweet Dreams by Marilyn Manson. This is significant because ever since I first heard that song when I was 13 years old, it has turned me on. And not turned on to the point of just thinking about sex. I'm talking about turned on so much that I may start to hump random people/objects. I actually lost my virginity while listening to that song. So, you can imagine how I was feeling at that point. If I wasn't already turned on before that, then I sure as hell was then. I was so ready to leave at that point. But there were so many more boobies to see and I do so love boobies.

So, we finished the show and then all four of us walked back to our cars hand-in-hand. Husband and I had already planned on going back to Trystan's house and sleeping over there for the night. Kirsten decided that she wanted to join us, which was a pleasant surprise. When we got to Trystan's house, I reminded him that he owed us a strip show. No, I definitely didn't forget about that! Husband and I sat on the bed and watched him strip. After he was done, Trystan climbed on top of Husband and started making out with him. I talked Husband into stripping as well, but there wasn't much dancing involved, since he doesn't dance. Then, I even got a strip show from Kirsten as well! That was my favorite part for sure.

Kirsten joined us in the bed and removed my clothes. Husband and Trystan were in bed next to us making out and sexing it up, but I wasn't paying much attention to what they were doing. Kirsten and I made out for a while and then she went down on me. I felt her licking and sucking on my clit and it felt so good. I closed my eyes and focused on breathing. She climbed on top of me and started to rub my clit with her fingers. I put my hand on her face, guided her lips toward mine and started making out with her again. I could taste my pussy juices on her lips and it turned me on even more. Every time my tongue touched hers, I thought about how that tongue was just on my clit. Mmmm. I heard Trystan breathing heavy and start to moan. I snapped back to reality and realized that the boys were still going at it next to us. My clit started to tingle and I listened to them closely as Kirsten kept rubbing my clit. I heard Trystan moaning and I knew he was cumming. That sent me over the edge. I orgasmed as well and it was amazing.

I took a moment to recover because my brain was all mush at that point, then I kissed Kirsten again. I ran my hands all over her soft skin and slowly made my way down to her lady bits. I cupped it in my hand and felt the warmness coming off of her. I couldn't wait to stick my fingers between her lips and feel the wetness contained inside. I rubbed it a bit and then opened her lips so that my finger could find her clit. I rubbed her clit, slowly at first. I watched her face and enjoyed the look of pleasure that was showing all over it. I rubbed it faster and she started breathing heavy. My clit responded by starting to throb. I put my face against her chest and listened to her breathing. I held my breath and waited for her to cum. She started to moan and my clit screamed out at me. I squeezed my legs together and focused on the sound of the sweet moans coming out of her mouth. I love the noises she makes when she cums.

I laid there next to Kirsten, holding her. Husband was laying right behind me and I could feel his cock against my ass. I knew he hadn't cum yet. I asked him if he wanted to and he said yes. So, he climbed on top of me and started fucking me. He put my feet up on his chest and raised my ass up so that he would hit my G-spot. As he fucked me, Kirsten started to suck on my right nipple. I moaned and then Husband started sucking on my left nipple at the same time. Trystan scooted over and started touching me as well and my mind was blown. It felt so amazing to have all three of them trying to please me. Husband sat up on his knees and I started to rub my clit as he continued to fuck me. I wrapped my legs around him tightly and flexed my pelvic muscles, making my pussy tighter. He started to fuck me harder, knowing that I was close to cumming. My G-spot and clit exploded in orgasmic pleasure at the same time. I pulled him down on me, put my hands in his hair, pulled it and said "I want you to cum so bad." He said he wanted me from behind, so I flipped over and got in the doggy-style position. Husband shoved his cock into my pussy again and Trystan knelt beside him, put his hands on Husband's ass and helped push him into me. Then, Trystan went behind him and started to push him into me with a pelvic thrust into Husband's ass. I was being fucked hard from behind as Kirsten watched, which I thought was very hot. I felt Husband hit my G-spot and I started to moan. Soon, he was cumming, shooting his hot load into my pussy. After that, we all collapsed on the bed and fell asleep together.

I have to say, when Husband and I first talked about him having a boyfriend and myself having a girlfriend, I never thought that there would ever be any foursome sexual activity at all. I feel extremely lucky that we happened to find two really great people that are so honest and open about things. My sex life is so great right now. Greater than I ever thought possible. We are all happy and things are wonderful. A lot of people frown upon our lifestyle choice, but this is proof that it actually works. Ah, happiness.

Deep Throat That Cock

Trystan stayed over last night. It's always a great time when he does. I know he is Husband's boyfriend, but I can't help but find myself more and more attracted to him every time we hang out. Not only does his personality rock, but he encompasses so many of my fetishes that it is quite mind-boggling. In my last blog post, I wrote about how I wished I had gotten naked before going down on him. So, last night, I did just that. Husband and Trystan were already naked in bed for a while, then they convinced me to get naked as well. I may pretend that I don't want to sometimes, but honestly, they don't have to try hard to convince me. But when they do, it makes me feel wanted and I love it. It was so dark in the room that I couldn't always tell whose body I was touching or who was touching me. It was very exciting.

Trystan and I were focusing on Husband, who was laying between us. Touching his body all over, kissing him and making him squirm. I licked and sucked on his nipple, then continued to lick my way down to his cock. I flicked my tongue over the head and then slowly licked down his shaft, sucking on the sides occasionally as well. He grabbed a handful of my hair and pulled it hard. My head flew back and I moaned. He then forced my head down on his cock. I took it in my mouth and he continued to push my head down hard, making me deep-throat his meat. I couldn't help but moan through it. I know most girls don't enjoy when guys put a hand on the back of their head and push it down, but I love it. It was so fucking hot. Husband eventually let go, but I continued to suck his cock for a while.

When I stopped, Husband climbed on top of Trystan and began making out with him again. I touched both of their bodies and listened to the sounds that their mouths were making. The lip smacking and the moans were enough to drive me crazy. Husband grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to them. I have zero night vision, so I very carefully scooted closer until my body was against theirs. Husband placed my hand on Trystan's cock and I began to stroke it softly. Trystan started to caress my back with his hand and it felt so good. His hands are very soft and smooth. Suddenly, I felt Husband's hand on the back of my head once again. He pushed my head down onto Trystan's cock. We both licked and sucked Trystan's cock together, while also kissing occasionally. Husband moved away and pushed my head down hard onto Trystan's cock. I felt it go deep into my throat and he moaned. It excited me so much. I used my hand to stroke his cock in motion with my mouth. Husband laid on top of Trystan and made out with him while I continued to suck his cock. I shoved it deep into my throat over and over again until he finally came in my mouth. I swallowed all of it and then licked off the little bit that was left on his cock. Mmmm. There are no words to describe my excitement. I had been thinking about him cumming in my mouth for a while and I was so happy that it finally happened.

I laid down next to them again and relaxed. Then, they took me by surprise by coming over to me and touching my body. Trystan touched my chest and my breath caught in my throat. He grabbed my breast and massaged it while Husband started to rub my clit. Their hands were all over my body and it got to the point where there was so much pleasure that I couldn't tell whose hands were touching where. I just got lost in the feeling and enjoyed it. Trystan was so close to my ear, breathing hard and moaning. I felt myself getting close to cumming. I started to touch Husband's body and I felt Trystan's hand. I touched his fingers and it excited me. Yes, I have a hand/finger fetish and his are fantastic. I ran my fingers across his fingers and then I started to cum. I am sure I grabbed his hand while I was cumming. My mind was so foggy after that. I couldn't even form words very well.

I am so happy that this threesome thing is finally working out for us. We've been trying for so long and it has always been a disaster. I can't think of a better guy to be having these threesomes with either. Trystan is amazing in so many ways and I am so glad to have him in our life. Husband has great taste in men and women. Haha. Every time we get together, we push things a little further and try something new. It's so exciting. It makes me glad that we've been taking things slow so that we can experience things and appreciate them like they should be. Most of all, I am so happy that Trystan is so open to trying new things. I am a very lucky woman.