Friday, February 7, 2025

Heartbreak and Fishnet Friday

I got my heart broken yesterday. I’ve been dating a guy for the last few months that I developed feelings for. He seemed like everything I’ve been looking for. Just perfect for me and I felt a deep soul connection with him. Too good to be true. I knew it was but I went for it anyway despite all my internal alarms going off telling me that I was going to get hurt. I didn’t listen and now I’m hating myself for it. 

To make matters worse, I got his message as soon as I left therapy, where I was dealing with some deep and intense childhood trauma. So, I was feeling very raw and emotional. And that heartbreak sunk deep into my soul.

I’ve been crying in bed for 24 hours and I can’t seem to find the strong independent woman inside myself. I don’t know why I allow people to get through my walls. They always hurt me. One day, maybe I’ll be enough. One day, maybe I won’t be too much. One day, maybe I'll get back what I give to others. That day is not today. 


Anyway, it’s fishnet Friday and I don’t have the emotional energy to take a new photo for you. So, here’s a throwback to April. 



February Photo Fest 2025

4 comments:

  1. I know what you're going through, I recently went through a breakup with my soulmate, it's still raw, painful, and on the surface for me, I'm sending you a virtual hug

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    1. I'm so sorry you are hurting too. Sending you all the hugs too.

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  2. Oh man, heartbreak is the worst...

    I'm not poly or ENM or anything similar, so sometimes I find it difficult to relate to you, but I've definitely experienced heartbreak... many times. It's the worst, and it always seems to come along at the least convenient time. Feeling raw after a therapy session is a very good example.

    I'm not sure if one can ever really heal from heartbreak. Lord knows, I certainly haven't. But you are one of the strongest people I know. Take some time to heal, and wait for it to ameliorate. It will stop hurting... eventually.

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    1. Thank you. I sometimes forget that I'm a strong independent woman. I have been through so much. I can get through this too. Heartbreak is the worst.

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