All tied up and vulnerable

Last week, I meant to write about some amazing sex that Husband and I had recently. Unfortunately, I was too busy to actually sit down and write about it. I remember most of what happened, but I'm sure I'll end up leaving some stuff out since it's been over a week now. Oh well, here it is anyway...

Husband and I were getting ready for bed. I had just finished brushing my teeth and I started to walk out of the bathroom, however, Husband stood in my way. He had a smirk on his face, so I knew he was up to something. He grabbed me, removed my clothes and then placed a blindfold on me. I felt nervous because I didn't know what he had planned, but it was so exciting at the same time. He led me into the bedroom, pushed me down on the bed and ordered me to lay on my back. I felt him grab my left leg and then pull it over to the corner of the bed. He tied a rope around my ankle and pulled it tightly. Then, he grabbed my right leg and did the same thing. My legs were spread as wide apart as the would go. I felt very vulnerable...and I loved it! He then tied my left arm the same way as my ankles. He left my right arm out so that I could still touch/grab whatever I wanted (though, I think next time he should tie that one up too).

After Husband was finished tying me to the bed, he then put his head between my legs and licked my clit. He licked it just enough to tease me and leave me wanting more, then he stopped. I whined a little bit and then he climbed on top of me. He rammed his cock into my pussy, knowing there was nothing I could do to stop him. He fucked me so hard for a few minutes, then he stopped. I think he was enjoying that teasing thing a lot. I felt him get up and start messing with things next to the bed. I thought he was probably going to get a toy, but I wasn't sure which one. I quietly waited until I felt something hard and cold touch my pussy. I moaned as he forced it inside me. He thrust a glass dildo into my pussy until my G-spot became so swollen that I squirted cum all over the bed as I had an orgasm. Husband then licked the cum off of my pussy. That's his favorite part.

He started to rub my clit with his fingers. It was so swollen, just begging to be touched. It didn't take long before I was cumming again. Then, he stuck his fingers inside my pussy and finger banged me. I moaned, wishing that it was his hard cock in my pussy instead. I got my wish. Husband climbed on top of me, shoved his cock in my very wet pussy and fucked me hard. I used my free hand to pull his hair, scratch his back with my nails, grab his arms and rub his chest.

Suddenly, he stopped, took the blindfold off and untied me. Then, he flipped me over and fucked me from behind. He fucked me so very hard. I was loving it. Mmmm. I loved feeling like he was in control and I was so powerless. It turned me on so much. I was so wet that the fluids were squirting out of my pussy as he fucked me. I began to grind my hips in a circular motion and flex my pc muslces as he fucked me even harder. He moaned, "Oh god, you feel so tight...so amazing..." and then we both came together. It felt so good that I almost fell asleep immediately after it was over.

I love how adventurous Husband has gotten. I hope he decides to tie me up again soon. That was a nice surprise. Mmmm. Now I'm horny just from thinking about it. Time to go masturbate....

Sexy trampoline fun

I seem to have lost interest in posting here. To the people who enjoy reading my blog, I am sorry for that. My sex life hit a speed bump, so I haven't had much to post about. Things are starting to heat back up though, so hopefully I'll get back into it. In fact, I have a post that I'm working on now about some great sex I had with my husband 2 nights ago. For now, though, I think I am going to write about a dream I had last night. It was about a friend of mine. Let's call her Erica.


Erica and I lived across the street from each other. It was late at night and we were sexting each other while laying in bed next to our sleeping husbands. Things were getting pretty hot, so we decided to sneak out of our houses and meet "at our secret place". Since I always sleep naked, I had to get some clothes on first. I put on some red lacy panties and a black bra. I was never one to care much about matching my bra and panties. I finished getting dressed, and then walked outside to meet Erica. I walked to a neighbor's house and went to the backyard. There was a large trampoline in the middle of the yard and Erica was sitting on it waiting for me looking super sexy. I walked up to her and said "Damn, you look hot in those boots" (I may have a bit of a boot fetish). She blushed and said "Not as hot as you" and then she put her hand on the back of my head, pulled me in close to her and kissed me.

I climbed up on the trampoline and laid down next to her. I stared into her eyes, the moon reflecting off of them perfectly, and then I kissed her. I ran my fingers through her hair as I kissed her, slipping my tongue gently into her mouth. She moaned softly and pulled me closer to her. We continued to kiss and began removing each other's clothing. We undressed down to our bras and panties (and Erica left her boots on). I gently ran my fingers down her neck, over her collar bone, around the outside curve of her luscious breast and then down her side around to her ass. She pushed me down, climbed on top of me and restrained my arms above my head. I moaned as I could feel my clit throbbing and begging to be touched. Erica started to kiss my neck right below my ear then she licked down to my collar bone. I moaned again and started to squirm. The thought of possibly being caught by the neighbors excited me even more. It felt so wrong to be there, yet it felt so good.

Erica climbed off of me, laid down next to me and put her left leg on top of mine. She put her hand down my panties and started to rub my clit. It felt so amazing. I knew it wouldn't take long before I was moaning in pleasure. I put my left arm behind her and gently ran my fingers up and down her back and used my other hand to massage her breast. She continued to finger my pussy as I rhythmically thrusted my hips. I was very wet and it was all because of her. My heartbeat quickened and my breathing began to get heavier. I put my hand on her face and pulled her in to kiss me. As soon as she kissed me, sparks flew and I came so hard. I tried to be as quiet as possible but it just felt so amazing.

Actually, the orgasm was so amazing that I woke up before I could return the favor in the dream. My clit was throbbing, so I decided to do something about it. I thought about the dream and started to rub my clit with my fingers. I was so turned on that it took about 20 seconds before I was cumming. Not quite as amazing as the orgasm in the dream, but it was still wonderful. Mmmm.

That is definitely a dream I hope to make reality some day. I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did!

Overdue introduction

I figured I would take some time to explain the relationship between my husband and I, since I failed to do that when I first started this blog.

My husband and I have been married for almost 4 years and we are very happily in love. We both identify as bisexual. I have been out since I was 15 years old and Husband has been out since he was 18. We have a semi-open marriage. By that, I mean, we are allowed to sleep with members of the same sex whenever we want. For example, I can date and/or have sex with any woman I choose without asking for his permission (and the same goes for him about men). Husband is not comfortable with me having sex with other men without him, so anytime I've had sex with another man, it's been in a threesome setting. Even though relationships with the opposite sex are not possible, we still consider ourselves to be polyamorous because the ultimate goal would be for myself to have a steady girlfriend and for him to have a steady boyfriend in addition to our marriage with each other. It may sound crazy, but it works for us.

I so badly want a girlfriend. There are not many lesbians (or even bisexual women for that matter) who are open to dating a married woman. Either that, or I just haven't met the right women yet. Even if I did find a woman who was interested in me, I doubt I would even have the guts to make a move and take it to the next level. I am very odd. With men, I am very outgoing and open. I will come right out and tell a man that I want him. I love how comfortable I am with men. With women, however, I am very shy. I will flirt like crazy, but once it comes to actually doing something about it and making a move, I freeze up. I just can't seem to take the next step. I think it is because I had been rejected by women so many times as a teenager, that I am now scared of being rejected again. So, I wait for the woman to make a move. I lost a girl that I really liked because I didn't make my move when I had the chance. Even though I regret that like crazy, I still can't seem to push myself out of my comfort zone and just do it. It makes me feel pathetic. And to people on the outside, it probably appears that I like to flirt, but I don't actually want to be sexual. That is not the case though. When a woman does make her move on me, I melt and totally go with it. It's amazing and I love it. I definitely enjoy sex with a woman way more than sex with a man...and that's saying a lot because I very much enjoy sex with men. Haha.

Hopefully one day I will stop being so lame and actually go out and find a wonderful woman that I can call my girlfriend. Until then, I will continue to work on building up that courage.

I can't think of anything else that I should share here, but if there are any questions, feel free to ask away. I'm very open, if you couldn't already tell. ;)

Tied up and getting my holes filled

Wow, I've been really slacking on this updating thing. We're almost halfway through February and this is my first update of the month! To the few who read this, I'm sorry for being absent for so long. I've had some really great sex, I just haven't had the time to write about it.

Recently, a friend posted something on Twitter that got me thinking. She was telling herself to "think with the part of your brain that isn't casting a porn film." Yeah, that is definitely how my mind works. Sometimes I forget to listen to what people are actually saying to me because I get caught up in a fantasy. When I meet someone that I find attractive, I immediately picture them naked and I play out a sex scene in my head. Of course, I don't actually tell them this. Most people would be offended by that and it's hard to tell which ones would like it. I'm not sure why some people are so uptight about sex. If someone were attracted to me, I would definitely want to know about it. It's very exciting to find out someone wants you sexually. At least for me it is.

So, Thursday night, Husband tried something new in bed. To say that I LOVED it, would not even suffice. He has never been very dominant. Unfortunately, we are both quite submissive. It's hard for either one of us to force ourselves to be dominant, but we try. I tend to fail at this but Husband has been doing a GREAT job at it lately. It's been a few days, so my memories are kind of vague, but I'll do my best to tell the story...

Husband and I were laying in bed cuddling. I had decided that sleep was a good choice since I had a busy day on Friday. Then, after laying there for about 5 minutes, I changed my mind. I reached over, grabbed Husband's arm and pulled him on top of me. I was very glad that we sleep naked because I was able to wrap my legs around Husband and thrust his body toward mine, shoving his cock into my pussy. He fucked me for a few minutes, thrusting his cock in and out of my very wet pussy and making me moan.

He stopped suddenly and started to kiss and lick his way down to my clit. I felt his breath on my vulva and it gave me goosebumps. He softly ran his fingers over my labia and then slowly parted them, exposing my swollen clitoris. He licked it softly and I arched my back. He continued to flick his tongue over my clit while also pulling out a toy he had hidden. It was a penis shaped vibrator and he wanted to tease my ass with it. He turned it on, held it against my asshole, and slowly moved it around. I was getting so close to orgasm. He put two fingers into my pussy and slid them in and out, hitting my G-spot. There was so much going on. My clit was being licked, my ass was being vibrated and my pussy was being fucked by his fingers. I arched my back again and began to moan. My body started to tingle and I knew what was coming. My clit and G-spot both climaxed at the same time. It was an amazing orgasm. It was so amazing that I had to pee right after. Haha.

When I came back into the room, Husband was standing next to the bed. At first, I thought he may have to pee too. When I walked up to him, he grabbed me and shoved the top half of my body down onto the bed. Nope, he definitely didn't have to pee. While holding me down, he said "Give me your hand." I reached back with my right hand and he grabbed my wrist roughly. I moaned softly and he tied my wrist with a Japanese silk bondage rope. Then he ordered me to give him my other hand, so I did. He tied that one together with my other one, then he pulled them tightly. I tried to fight back by pulling my arms away from him. The rope dug deeper into my wrists and it felt so good. He pulled the rope harder and then forcefully shoved his cock into my pussy. I moaned louder. It had been years since someone tied me up and I was definitely enjoying it. I felt something vibrating on my ass again, which turned out to be a small purple bullet. He slowly slid it into my ass and left it there.

As Husband was fucking me, he asked me a question. "Do you know what you're gonna do next?" My curiosity peaked and I answered "No, what?" He said, "You're going to suck my cock with all of your pussy juices on it." He fucked me for a little bit longer and then pulled out. He climbed up on the bed and knelt down in front of my face. While I was still laying down on the bed, he shoved his cock into my mouth. He asked, "How does your pussy taste on my cock? Do you like that?" I loved hearing him talk to me like that. My clit was throbbing so badly. He fucked my mouth while rubbing my clit with his fingers. It didn't take long before I was orgasming again. I moaned with his cock still in my mouth. That pushed him over the edge and he shot his cum deep inside my mouth. He pulled out and I swallowed his juices. He collapsed next to me and we both let out a huge moaning sigh. Amazing sex. Mmmm.

This is a side of my husband that I could definitely get used to. I know it's hard for him to be dominate, but he does it so well. I can tell he enjoys it as well. I'm looking forward to the next time he shows this side of himself.

Dominant Husband makes me happy

After writing my last blog entry, Husband and I climbed in bed and had a long talk about sex and the things we want to try. After fantasizing and imagining us trying these different things, I think we both got pretty turned on.

"You know what I want to do right now?" he asked. I thought about it for a second and said, "Stick your penis in my vagina?" He said, "Well, not yet, but yes. You need to lay on your back, then I am going to go down on you and stick a toy in your pussy...and you're going to like it." If I wasn't wet enough already, that sure made my juices start flowing even more. Of course I did as I was told.

I turned over and laid on my back. Husband climbed on top of me and kissed his way down to my lady-bits. My body tingled in anticipation of what was to come. "You smell so good", he said as he let out a moan. He licked the outer lips of my labia and then he gently parted them. He excitedly started to lick my clit, causing my body to tense.

He continued to lick and tease my clit. Eventually, I felt him slowly slide a toy into my very wet pussy. I knew right away which toy it was because it hit my g-spot with such force and accuracy. I moaned and arched my back. It felt so good, my body was covered with goosebumps. I love that little studded glass dildo. As he slid the toy in and out of my pussy, it got wetter with every stroke. He increased the speed and force of the thrusts and my g-spot became very swollen. It didn't take long before it began to gush. The juices were running down my ass and creating such a mess that we had to grab a towel. Husband tried to lick up as much as he could. I think that may be his drink of choice. He continued to lick my clit and fuck me with the toy until I had a mind-blowing orgasm.

He climbed on top of me and forced his cock inside my pussy. He fucked me hard and fast. My pussy was spraying everywhere. It was gushing like a waterfall. Oh my, it felt so amazing that I can't even describe it with words. I'm sure I was moaning so loudly that the neighbors were pissed...or jealous...or a little of both. As my pussy spewed pleasure juices, Husband would occasionally stop fucking me so that he could lick it up. It was very hot.

We had been going at it for so long that, sadly, I really had to pee. So, I quickly ran to the bathroom. When I returned, Husband was standing next to the bed waiting for me. He pushed the top half of my body down on the bed, forcefully grabbed my hips and started to fuck me hard from behind. I was pleasantly surprised.

I climbed back up on the bed and assumed the doggy-style position. Husband took my hand and put a lubed up magenta anal toy in it. "I want you to put that in your ass", he said, which was his way of politely demanding what he wanted. Going with the flow of the night, I did what he told me. He then fucked me while the anal toy filled my ass, making my pussy tighter, I'm sure. He started to moan, and I knew he was about to cum. He fucked me harder and that made me moan as well. I tightened the muscles in my pussy as he shot his hot load into it and moaned loudly. Mmmm.

When we finished, we were both covered in my pussy juices. We had to wipe off with a towel and put extra towels down on the bed, but it was so worth it!

Lists are wonderful things

Sex is my most favorite thing to do and I have had a lot of it. However, I don't feel like I've experienced enough. There are so many things that I want to try that I've never done. I'm sure there are many more things that I have not even thought of that I would absolutely love. I'm always willing to try anything at least twice (you know, just in case the first time just didn't go well). For example, I never thought I would enjoy hair-pulling. Then, one night, Husband got really excited and started to pull my hair while fucking me. Now, I'm not sure if he actually meant to do it or if he was even aware that he was doing it. All I know, is that I loved it. If I had never tried it, I would have missed out.

So, that is my point. There are so many things out there that I feel like I need to try. Not that my sex life isn't amazing already. Trying new things is just exciting and fun. I think I may make a list of all the things that I know I want to try, and then ask Husband for some of his ideas. I may have to do some research on this one.

In other news, I was thinking about the past the other day. When I had sex for the first time at the age of 16, I actually thought that my boyfriend at the time would be the only guy that would stick his cock in my pussy for the rest of my life. Wow, can you imagine?? I just can't believe that I actually felt that way at one point in my life. Especially now, when the thought of experimenting with other men is really exciting to me.

Sometimes I feel like I'm just not happy with the amount of people that I've had sex with. Though I've never gone longer than 7 months without sex since I lost my virginity (and those 7 months were hell & I only went that long once), I haven't actually had sex with many people. I guess I should be proud of that? I don't know. I used to be proud of it. Now, it just seems kind of boring. As I get older, I have the urge to experience new things/people. I also have the urge to make a list of the people I have had sex with and rate them. Haha. I had a friend in the past that did that, but I decided it wasn't worth my time because I haven't sexed it up with enough people to warrant that. Maybe I'll do it anyway.

Tonight I was talking to Husband about how many states each of us has had sex in. I was quite disappointed to realize that I have only had sex in 4 states! Now, my goal is to add more states to this list. So, for my first list, here are the states I have had sex in:
1) Missouri
2) California
3) Illinois
4) Louisiana

Sex toys: more fun with a partner

I very much enjoy experimenting with sex toys in the bedroom. It's much more fun when you can do it with a partner. I have had sex with people in the past who have been very against this. I never quite understood what made them so uncomfortable about it. It's not like the sex toy is actually going to take their place. If that was the case, why would a person have a sex partner at all? They would just be single and live a stress-free life with all of their sex toys. Right? That's the way I see it, anyway.

I am so thankful that Husband enjoys experimenting with sex toys even more than I do! He gets very excited about it and truly enjoys himself. We have a lot of different kinds of toys, but his favorite are the ones he can put inside me. He often surprises me with them by grabbing them when I'm not looking. When he sticks it inside me, I always try to figure out which one it is. Then, I ask him to see if I'm correct. It's pretty exciting.

The other night, Husband did just that. He started by kissing my leg, moving slowly up the inside of my thigh. As he got close enough to really tease me, he switched legs. He kissed my other leg the same way, teasing me even more. When he got to my pussy, he slowly parted the lips of my labia and began to lick my clit. I squirmed underneath him. He circled his tongue around my clit until I was close to orgasm. Then, he pulled a glass dildo out from underneath him. He was warming up the studded phallic toy so that I wouldn't be shocked by how cold it was (a lesson well learned when I about jumped off the bed one night). I was still unaware that he had the toy until he slid it into my wet pussy. My body filled with goosebumps and I moaned. He continued to lick my clit while he fucked me with the toy. It didn't take long before my pussy was gushing. I lost all control when my clit exploded in orgasm. I moaned loudly and Husband moaned with me. After I finished, he pulled the toy out of my pussy and licked my cum off of it. I thought that was very hot.

See, playing with toys with your partner can be very fun. It doesn't have to be something that makes you uncomfortable or self conscious. Don't be afraid to bring it up. Chances are, your partner will want to try it just as much as (if not more than) you do.

Sext messages and quickies - fun in moderation

Husband sent me some nice sext messages the other day while he was at work. Then he followed it up with a hot video made just for me. I have to say, I loved it! I'm kind of new to this sext messaging thing. To be honest, I never really saw the point, so I just didn't do it. Then a couple guys I know started sending them to me and I found out I actually enjoy it. I'm not that good at it, but practice makes perfect, right? I definitely welcome more of these sexy messages in the future. Rawr!

Last night, Husband and I had a quickie before bed. He had to be up in a few hours, so we didn't have time to do more. He demanded that I get on my hands and knees, which was very hot. Deep down, I am much more submissive than I am dominant. I love being ordered to do things. It gets me so excited. I tried to hint that I wanted him to be more forceful by playfully saying, "What if I say no?", but it didn't work. So, I did as I was told and he slowly slid his cock into my wet pussy. He moaned as he entered me. Every time I hear him moan, my clit tingles. Mmmm. He began to fuck me faster and my pussy got more juicy. I raised my hips just a little so that his cock would hit my g-spot. Every time he rammed into me, I would push my ass back into him. He started to fuck me harder. I could feel my g-spot get more swollen and I knew I would be cumming soon. So, I reached my hand down under me and started to rub my clit with my fingers. He fucked me even harder and I came so hard. As Husband felt my pussy rhythmically tighten around his cock as I orgasmed, he came inside me as well. We both collapsed and he asked me if I needed more pleasure. This got me thinking. 

Just because you have a quickie, that doesn't mean that you can't be completely satisfied. Sometimes that's all you need...especially when you're having sex with someone who really knows how to work their cock. I felt completely satisfied last night, even though it didn't last near as long as it usually does. Great sex doesn't have to last for hours, though it's nice when it does. *wink*

Can masturbation be cheating?

Seriously, the orgasms that my shower head gives me are so powerful that it almost makes me feel like I'm cheating on my husband. Nothing else has ever made me cum like that. I definitely forgot how amazing it feels. I'm glad I now have the chance to experience it again. I have been doing my best to not do it too often. I don't want to make Husband jealous. Though, I guess I could invite him in there with me. I love trying new things!

In other news, the closer we get to actually having a threesome with the sexy Jacob, the more excited I become. I am hoping things work out how we want them to. I have so many fantasies in my head about it. I can't wait until we finally get to experience it. Mmmm. It turns me on just thinking about it. Fun times to come!

I have also been thinking about Olivia a lot lately. I fear she has completely lost interest in me. I can't remember the last time we were intimate and it doesn't seem to be a high priority for her to make time for it. For that reason, I've backed off. I'm giving her space. If she decides that she wants me again, I welcome her to come to me. Otherwise, I'll just continue being her friend. I really need a girlfriend...badly. I am holding out hope that I will find one this year. We will see in time...

The kitchen is not just for cooking

On New Year's Eve, Husband and I went out with friends. We both started out pretty horny before we even left the house, but there just wasn't enough time to have sex. So, we couldn't keep our hands off of each other all night.

We started out at a really lame bar. It was pretty dead there and the music sucked, but I was enjoying the scenery as Husband bent over while he was playing pool. He has an amazing ass and I love staring at it. Eventually I got too excited to just watch from afar, so I walked over to where he was. When he came close to where I was standing, I walked up behind him and gave a pelvic thrust into his ass, ramming him into the pool table. I ran my hands all over his body and breathed on the back of his neck. He smelled so good and I fantasized about fucking on the pool table in front of everyone there. That would have been awesome. After I got my fill of teasing, I went back to my friends so Husband could finish his game.

We left that place and went to a gay bar, hoping that it would be more exciting. It was a tiny place and there were lots of people there, so we ended up having to stand outside by a fire. Usually, when Husband and I go to gay bars, we try to keep our hands off each other and give each other some space so that we can meet other people of the same sex. That night, it seemed to be impossible. I really tried to give him space, but it was too difficult. It was made worse by the fact that bonfires turn us both on. So, we stood outside while we waited for the countdown to midnight and teased each other more. We touched, kissed, gave sexy smoldering looks, and I fantasized about fucking on the wooden picnic tables that were next to the fire. Too bad that wasn't possible.

After we rang in the new year with a hot kiss, we left and went to another friend's house. He was having a house party and I wanted to check it out. On the drive there, I was drunk and very horny, so all the little bumps we hit were hell for my sensitive lady-bits. When we got there, we walked into the house and it was very dark. People had glowing necklaces and bracelets and there was a DJ playing good music. That just helped to intensify my mood. Because it was dark, our wandering hands wandered even further. Husband grabbed me, pulled me close and started to kiss my neck. I was so wet and I wanted Husband so badly. I fantasized about fucking on my friend's couch and got a little more excited. I didn't think about it until later, but I wish I would have thought about fucking in the bathroom. That would have been hot.

When we finally got back home, we rushed into the house. Husband took his clothes off very quickly. I sat down on the couch and began to take my boots off. Husband came over to help. After my boots were off, Husband massaged my feet a little bit. It felt extra good because my skin was very sensitive from being so turned on. Husband then put his face in my lap and said, "Mmmm...you smell so good. I need to taste you now." He quickly pulled off my pants and rubbed my crotch over my silky panties. He got so excited that he climbed on top of me, pulled my panties aside and shoved his cock in my pussy. Husband fucked me for a few minutes and then he stopped and took my panties off. He then grabbed my legs, threw them up over his shoulders and went down on me. I moaned while he licked my pussy. It felt so amazing. My clit had been begging for that all night. 

Husband made me cum, then he led me into the kitchen. He bent me over the kitchen table and fucked me again. As I moaned, he started to ram his cock into my pussy a little harder. That made me moan even louder. I tightened the muscles in my pussy and Husband began to moan. As he came inside me, my whole body began to tingle. We went to the bedroom, got in bed, and then he started to play with my very wet pussy with his fingers. I love the feeling of his fingers on my clit. He rubbed it in a circular motion until I had another orgasm. Then, we both passed out. That was a great way to start the new year!