Another Date with the Doctor

The doctor invited me over again two weeks ago. It had been 4 months since we last hung out, so I was starting to think that he was no longer interested in me. Apparently, he has just been so busy that he hasn't had time for me.

The last time we hung out, things got pretty hot. So, I was excited but also really nervous. I'm not sure if it was because I hadn't seen him in so long or if it was because my anxiety has been pretty bad lately. I was seriously thinking about not going but Husband encouraged me to go and fight my anxiety, which I was very grateful for. 

When I got to the Doctor's place, we ordered some food and talked about things that have been happening in our life lately. Eventually, we ended up on the subject of porn. It's pretty common for me to turn conversations into something sexual but the Doctor is the only person I know that does this just as much as I do. So, our conversations are always very hot.

He told me about the first porn he ever saw and masturbated to when he was young. It was Debbie Does Dallas. He asked if I had ever seen it before. I said no, so he pulled it up on his phone and showed me his favorite scene. That turned into watching a scene from another porn, and then another, until dinner was delivered. 

We went to the kitchen table to eat and continued to talk about things in our life. After we were done eating, he asked me what I'd like to do. I said we should continue watching porn. I was really excited because I have never had a partner that wanted to watch porn with me.

We watched a few more scenes from different movies that he really likes. We were both getting very turned on. Hands started to wander and caress. Fidgeting, adjusting, deep breaths, long sighs, little moans. We started to make out a bit, then he asked if I'd like to go to the bedroom to watch a movie. I said, "Sure, or we could just have sex." His eyes got wide and he tried to respond but he was speechless. "I mean, if you want to..." He said, "Of course I want to!"

What I was wearing under my shirt and skirt.

I went to the bathroom and then met him in the bedroom. When I walked in, he was lying on the bed, waiting for me. He had changed into shorts and took off his shirt. I walked over to the bed and removed my shirt and skirt. I sat next to him and started to caress his upper body with my fingers. 

I asked him to remove his shorts, so he did. He was rock hard. He was so turned on that pre-cum was dripping down his cock. I touched the head softly with my fingertips, teasing him. Then, I wrapped my hand around his shaft and jerked it slowly. He rubbed my thighs and moaned softly. I bit my lip, contemplating what to do next. 

I got up and moved to the end of the bed. I laid down between his legs and licked the head of his cock. I continued to lick up and down his shaft, getting it nice and wet. I put the head in my mouth and held it there, looking at his face for a reaction. He closed his eyes and moaned, yearning for more. 

I bobbed up and down, slowly at first, then quickening the pace a bit. I teased the head with my tongue, swirling it around. Then, I started sucking again. He moaned and said, "God, you're so good to me, Ash." His breath was ragged. I could tell he wasn't going to last much longer. 

I started to suck harder, faster. He moaned louder and fidgeted a bit. He warned me, "I'm gonna cum soon." I looked him in the eyes and kept sucking. "Oh, fuck." He started to cum, filling my mouth. I continued to suck until his moans had stopped. Then, I opened my mouth to show him the cum on my tongue. He smiled and laughed a little. I could tell he really liked that. I swallowed the cum and then went to get a drink.

When I walked back into the room, he asked me what he could do to pleasure me. I said, "Anything you want to do." He just laughed and I laid down next to him. He helped me remove my bra and panties. Then, he grabbed my breast and started to suck on my nipple. He put his hand on my vulva and put pressure on it. I moaned and pushed against his hand, begging for more. He parted my labia and touched my clit lightly. He rubbed it so lightly that I almost couldn't feel it. 

I felt his finger slip into my pussy. I was super wet and turned on. He fingered me for a few seconds, then rubbed my clit a bit more. He stopped suddenly and asked if he could use a toy. He had a Womanizer with him. He said that he wanted to see my face as he used it on me. I said yes, so he grabbed it out of his bag. He parted my labia again and put the Womanizer on my clit. It vibrated gently and sucked on my clit. It felt so good. I moaned and rocked my hips. I was so turned on from the porn earlier that it didn't take long before I was cumming.

After my orgasm, he got up to check the time. He said he had to leave to go get his kids. I was disappointed that we didn't have more time for sex. I didn't make him feel bad about it though. I told him it was okay, gathered my things, and left. 

On the way home, I started thinking about what had happened. Or, maybe what hadn't happened? I've given him multiple blow jobs at this point and he has never put his mouth on my pussy. He has said that he enjoys eating pussy but has never expressed interest in doing that to me.

I'm probably overthinking the whole thing. It probably has nothing to do with me at all. He's probably just nervous because he has only been with one other woman (his wife) and he feels inexperienced. I'm trying to not focus on it and just let it go. Even if it does make me feel a little insecure.

So, that's how the date went. I always have a good time hanging out with the Doctor. Our conversations are great because we relate on so many levels. I also really enjoyed watching porn with him. I would love to have a partner that wants to watch porn with me regularly. It's much more fun when you have someone to watch with. Husband used to watch over my shoulder in bed but I know it's just not his thing and that's alright. 

So, who else really loves to watch porn with their partner?

Welcome to 2021

Like a lot of people, I was really hoping that 2020 was going to be a good year. At the beginning of the year, I had started talking to some new people who I was really into. I was feeling extra motivated to give in to my sexual desires and not feel guilty about them. I was ready to really enjoy myself and others. Then, the pandemic happened.

In order to stay safe, we had to stay in our houses and not see other people. I thought for sure this would only last a few months and then we would be in the clear. Eventually, cases would go down and the risk would be low. So, I did my best to just stay put and be patient.

For entertainment, I started using dating sites seriously again. I met a few people on there that I really clicked with. I was feeling hopeful again. Maybe something could come of this. One girl, who I really fell for, asked if I'd like to start hanging out in person but six feet apart. So, we started having little dates outside. We walked in the park, sat under a pavilion and talked, went out and got ice cream. Stuff like that. They weren't super exciting ideas but they were great dates because I was with her. After a few months, I ended up asking that girl to be my girlfriend and she said yes! I was so happy. Until that girl stopped wanting to hang out. We still send each other a Snap every day but I think it's safe to say that we aren't in an actual relationship. I was quite disappointed when that ended.

So, with that failed relationship, I began to focus on other people who I had been talking to. I conversed with a man from Ireland for a while who had me really lost in fantasy land but eventually, he stopped responding to me. I was also talking to a guy who was probably the most attractive man I've met all year. We had so much in common and he was incredibly sweet but as soon as I asked him out, he told me that he was poly-saturated. So, that was the end of that one. I had a handful of other people, men and women, who I continued to talk to but nothing seemed to come of it. I failed to even see the point anymore. This pandemic was obviously going to go on forever and I'd never be able to fuck other people safely again.

At this point, the year was three-quarters of the way over and I still hadn't sexed it up with anyone other than Husband since 2019. I wasn't even having sex with Husband that often because he was dealing with so much stress and anxiety from work and our sleeping schedules were completely opposite. I was feeling quite sexually frustrated.

I hadn't seen Jacob, my fairly regular FWB, in over a year. I missed his cock like crazy. We still sexted with each other occasionally and he continued to send me nice things to let me know he was thinking about me, which was lovely. Our friendship was holding steady even though we hadn't been able to hook up. That was definitely a positive thing.

Most of the other people who I had been talking to had gotten bored of me by this time. I tried to reignite the sparks but it seemed to be a lost cause. One person, though, had not lost interest at all. That was the Doctor, who I wrote about previously. He kept trying to get me to go out with him but I was feeling so nervous about it that I kept telling him, "Not yet." He finally talked me into it and something about him made me feel super comfortable. My walls came crashing down very quickly and after only three dates, we ended up fucking. Maybe it was the last ten months of sexual frustration that just couldn't be held back anymore. Maybe I was just really feeling the connection between us because our sex drives match up so well. I'm not sure why it happened even though I had so much anxiety, but I'm glad it did.

My feelings about that were very complicated. I judged myself for hooking up with someone during a pandemic, though I felt better about it because it was with a doctor whom I knew was taking extra precautions and understood the seriousness of it all. I was still a bit worried afterward, wondering if I had exposed myself by hooking up with him. But that was all just my brain being a jerk and flooding me with unecessary anxiety. I feel better about it now, though I'm not sure if I will be fucking other people anytime soon.

I haven't talked to the Doctor much since we had sex. He checks in every once in a while but he's such a busy person. I'm not sure if he really has time for me. I'm open to whatever it is going to become though. I do have other potential partners that I'm talking to right now. I'm not sure where things will go with any of those people but I do have hopes for the future. If we can just keep the spark alive through the rest of this pandemic, things would be good.

So, here we are on the first day of 2021 and I'm looking back on the last 366 days. After a very long dry spell, in which I hadn't met anyone that I really wanted to pursue a sexual relationship with, I finally found a bunch of people that I really wanted to fuck, however, I couldn't actually fuck them due to social distancing. After years of silently judging myself for wanting to slut it up with lots of people, I finally accepted my desires and felt ready to embrace them. But what was the point if I couldn't actually do it? After two years of searching, I finally found another girlfriend only for it to fizzle out due to not being able to be as close as we wanted to be. So many opportunities that were lost over the last year. What a waste. Last year could have been amazing. I had such high hopes about having sex with many different people. Instead, I had sex with only two people.

I know that I should feel grateful for those two people that I had sex with. I know there are so many people out there that have been alone all year and haven't been able to have sex with anyone. It's just really hard for my nympho brain to really understand that. It just wants all the sex. It's never enough. So, anyway, here's to hoping that 2021 has something wonderful in store for my sex life. Happy New Year. I hope 2021 has something great in store for you as well.

The Doctor (part 2)

On Saturday night, I had a date with the Doctor. You can read about that right here if you haven't already.

When I got home from the date, I went to the bedroom with Husband and started to talk about my night. He asked for all the dirty details about what we did. So, I told him everything. He was very turned on by it.

After I was finished, Husband said, "So, what do you want now that you're home with me?" I took a deep breath and then responded, "I want you to fuck me." He said, "Yeah? Get on your knees." I smiled, grabbed my vibrator, and got in the position. 

He got up and grabbed a dildo, then he climbed on the bed behind me. He said, "I want you to have four cocks in your pussy tonight. We're going to start with this one." He shoved his cock into my pussy and fucked me hard. I moaned loudly and gripped the pillow tightly in my hands. I pushed my ass back against him with every stroke. My pussy was still so hungry.

He stopped fucking me and said, "I wish we had other men here to fuck you right now but since we don't, I'm going to fuck you with this toy and you can imagine that it's someone else." He lubed up the dildo and slowly slid it inside my pussy. He angled it just right so that it would hit my g-spot. I turned my vibrator on and put it on my clit. I was already so close to cumming. I rocked my hips in sync with the thrusts and I felt my pussy tighten. "Fuck, yes!" I started to cum and Husband moaned in satisfaction. He continued to fuck me with the dildo, harder now. "Fuuuuuuck." My g-spot exploded in orgasm and my pussy squirted all over his hand. It was so intense.

Husband tossed the dildo aside and started to fuck me with his cock. He said, "Maybe next time the doctor can come home with you and we can fuck both of your holes. Would you like that?" I moaned and said, "Yessss." I thought about having two cocks in me at the same time and my clit throbbed. He said, "I wish we had enough cocks here to fill all of your holes. One in your pussy, one in your ass, and one in your mouth. You'd be moaning around that cock in your mouth. Then we would all cum in your pussy, filling it so full that it would be dripping out of you. You'd like that, wouldn't you?" "Fuck, yessss." I was so fucking turned on. I wanted to cum so bad.

I got lost in the thought of being used by all those men. It was so fucking hot. Husband flipped me over onto my back, laid on top of me, and started to fuck me again. He held me tight and looked me in the eyes. I could tell he was close. I wrapped my legs around him and squeezed his arms. I wanted to pull him inside me. Suddenly, he sat up, flipped my legs up onto his chest, and fucked me hard until we both came together.

My body collapsed. I was spent. I couldn't even imagine cumming again at that point. Husband looked at me and said, "I won't make you take that fourth cock right now but you will have to take it sometime this week." I agreed and then passed out. My pussy was feeling satisfied. At least for a little while.

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The Doctor (part 1)

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Sinful Sunday: Bruised

I went out with G on Friday night. I decided to go to his house afterwards and we had a scene. He beat my ass and left some pretty marks.




Kiss the lips and see who else is sinning.

Why Do I Judge Myself So Harshly?

Last night, I had a date with a guy who would like to be referred to as G. We were supposed to go to a bar but said bar happened to be closed that night. So, G asked if I would like to just come to his house instead. I thought about it for a while to make sure that's what I really wanted to do. After some talking with Husband, I decided that it would be fine.

When I got to G's house, we got some drinks and then sat on the couch to talk for a while. We got to know each other a bit and then he moved closer to me on the couch. Next thing I knew, we were making out. G asked if I wanted to go to the bedroom. I was concerned about that because I'm not the best at saying no to sex and I knew that I didn't want to have sex that soon. I thought about it for a while and then decided to go to the bedroom with him. Again, I really suck at saying no.

When we got to the bedroom, he put on some music and then we laid down on the bed and started to make out again. I thought we were going to keep our clothes on but eventually our shirts and my bra came off. There was lots of kissing, biting, caressing, and exploring with our mouths.

I made it a point to not take off my pants because I knew that if I did, there was a 100% chance we were going to fuck. I know myself well enough to feel confident about that. I felt like a tease, which is something I never want to be. But I just didn't expect things to move so quickly. I mean, don't get me wrong. It was hot as fuck and I was definitely very turned on. I loved the way he touched my body and he is a really great kisser. I wanted him. Badly. I just didn't want to do it so soon. I felt like a nervous teenager filled with raging hormones. It was so hard to say no.

So, the question I'm sure you're asking is, "Why was it such a big deal to fuck if you both wanted it?" I'm asking myself the same thing. I definitely judge myself harshly for my sexual appetite. For some reason I feel awful about myself if I have sex on a first date. I guess it's the stupid shit that society has forced into my head. Why should it matter if I fuck someone I just met? As long as it's safe and consensual, it shouldn't matter. I don't judge anyone else for doing the same thing. It's interesting that I have a different set of standards for myself than for others. Obviously that's a hangup that I have to work on.

After fooling around for a couple hours, it was time for me to leave. I felt awkward as hell and hoped that I didn't come off as a lame tease. I did have a really great time with G and I'm looking forward to the next time that we get to hang out.

When I got home, I was super wound up and my clit was screaming at me. Husband and I went to the bedroom and talked about how my night went. Then, he moved down to my thighs and started to lick and kiss them. He continued down my legs and to my feet. He licked my feet and sucked on my toes, which was the first time that has ever happened to me. It felt pretty damn amazing. I didn't know I would be into that and I felt a little self conscious about it, but it is definitely a thing I enjoy.

Husband continued to lick and kiss up my other leg, to my thigh, and then to my pussy. He licked and sucked my clit as he fucked me with his fingers. I couldn't take it anymore. I grabbed him and said, "I need you inside me now!" He climbed on top of me and rubbed his cock on my clit, teasing me. I whined and begged him to fuck me. I was so wet and his cock felt really good on my clit but I needed to be fucked. He would shove his cock inside me and then take it out again and rub my clit with it. Over and over. It was driving me crazy! Finally, he shoved his cock inside me and started fucking me hard. I moaned out, "Fuck, your cock feels so good inside me." He fucked me harder and then started to choke me. I rubbed my clit and it wasn't long before I was cumming all over his cock.

He continued to fuck me as I licked and kissed his neck. Then, he said, "I want to fill all of your holes. My cock in your ass, the strap-on in your pussy, and a dildo in your mouth. Then, I want to fuck you until you cum and moan around the cock in your mouth." That made me feel so slutty and I loved it. So, we paused to get all of that ready.

I laid on my back and Husband started licking my clit again. He told me to start sucking on the dildo as he did that. After a few minutes, I told him I was ready. I grabbed a vibrator and put it on my clit as he lubed up his cock. He slid his cock into my ass and the strap-on inside my pussy. I felt so full. My whole body tingled. I almost came right away, so I pulled the vibrator away to stop myself. He then told me to start sucking on the dildo again. I imagined that it was a real cock and passionately sucked it, shoving it deep into my throat. I put the vibrator on my clit again and Husband started to fuck me harder, faster. I felt my whole body tense up and then I came so hard. I moaned around the cock and imagined that it was cumming in my mouth. Husband came at the same time, filling my ass with his hot load. Fuck, that was hot.

We cleaned up and then laid in bed cuddling and talking about things for a while. Then, we decided to fuck one more time before we went to sleep. This time, I took him from behind. I stuck my ass in the air and he fucked my pussy so hard. I put the vibrator on my clit and came around his cock. He continued to fuck me and I had a G-spot orgasm. Mmmm. Then, he pushed me down on the bed and laid on top of me and fucked me in that position for a while.

I can definitely feel it today. I'm quite sore but it hurts so good. Last night was pretty fucking amazing. I'm a happy girl today.

Kinky Date Night

Husband and I had a much needed date night on Friday. It had been quite a while since we had been out alone together, so I was super excited. Back in April, I wrote about a monthly kinky meet-up that I had attended. Well, Friday was the night that the July meeting was happening. So, I insisted that Husband attend with me. I think he was quite a bit nervous, like I was the first time. I was hopeful that it would go better since he was with me, but it really wasn't much better. The people there tend to hang out in little cliques, so if you don't know anyone in those cliques, you are kind of an outsider. I'm sure if we both weren't socially inept, we could learn to mingle a little better. Everyone there is super friendly. It just doesn't seem to work well for someone with social anxiety. I did get to see Candace for a while. She showed up about 20 minutes before I had to leave. I didn't get to talk to her much, but any amount of time spent with her is amazing. I also talked to more people this time than last time, so that's a good thing. At one point people were taking turns spanking each other. I was enjoying watching that. A man there also brought some toys in a big bag that he was showing off. The potential for it to be really fun is there. I just haven't found my niche yet. I will continue to attend these meet-ups in hopes that I'm accepted in one of these cliques and feel less anxious. I really do want to get into the kink scene. It excites me quite a bit.

We left the kink event early so that we could attend a burlesque show that was happening nearby. I do so love burlesque shows. Every time I leave them, I am very wet and turned on. During intermission, one of the girls laid on the stage in a bra and panties. They covered her in cookies and told everyone that they could eat a cookie off of her if they put a tip into a bucket. Well, I couldn't pass that up. I picked the cookie that was closest to her crotch and I ate it. It was even a bit warm. Mmmm. I imagined very dirty things while eating that cookie. That was so worth it.

After the show, I got a text message from Jacob. He asked how the night was going and I told him about the people who were giving out spankings at the kink meet-up. He said that he would like to have one of those, so I told him to come over so that I could spank him and he could fuck me. He seemed to be considering it and I was very excited...and then he stopped responding. Apparently he passed out. I got my hopes up that I was finally going to get fucked by that sexy man, and then I was let down. Damn. He did say that he'd like to go out for coffee again soon, so hopefully we can do that sometime this week. One day I will have that fickle man...one day.

When we got home, I went straight to the bathroom. As I was washing my hands, Husband came up behind me and told me to bend over the sink. Of course, I did as I was told. He lifted my skirt and spanked my left ass cheek. I moaned out in pleasure and then he spanked the other side. He took turns hitting one cheek and then the other, while simultaneously holding me down with his other hand. When he felt content that he had punished my ass enough, he ordered me to go lay down on the bed and wait for him. He added that I was not to remove any of my clothing. As I was leaving the bathroom, I saw that he was getting ready to warm up one of the glass dildos. My clit tingled in excitement.

I laid down on my stomach and waited for Husband to come into the room. He jumped on me, wearing nothing but a kilt. He pulled my skirt up, told me to stick my ass up, pulled my panties aside, and then he shoved his finger inside my pussy. He said, "God, you're so wet." He sucked the pussy juice off of his finger, took off his kilt, and then stuck his finger back inside me. He fucked me harder and harder with his finger. Since I have a hand fetish, I absolutely love when he fucks me with his fingers. It turns me on so much. I dug my nails into the bed and he said, "Mmmm, you're getting tighter. I can feel that you're getting ready to cum. I want you to cum all over your panties. Soak them for me." I felt his finger hitting my G-spot, going faster and faster. I pushed against his thrusts, making them more powerful. I was so close that I thought I may lose my mind. I reminded myself not to hold my breath and then let go. My whole body convulsed in pleasure as I gushed all over my panties. Husband moaned and then licked all the cum off of my crotch. He then sucked the cum out of my panties and I giggled.

I thought he was done at that point. Boy, was I wrong. He grabbed the glass dildo, shoved it in my pussy, and started to fuck me with it. He placed his cock on my asshole as he continued to fuck me with the toy. He reached around and started to rub my clit with his other hand. Having all three of those spots stimulated at the same time was driving me wild. I started to breathe heavier and he said, "My pre-cum is all over your asshole. I want to stick something in it." So, he did just that. He slowly inserted his finger into my ass and then continued to fuck my pussy with the toy. With every thrust of the toy, my ass was also being fucked by his finger. I felt my clit getting so close to cumming. I was so wet that his fingers were gliding across my clit in such a silky way. It felt so good. I tried to hold back the orgasm, but it was no use. I moaned out in pleasure and came so hard.

Husband spanked my ass a few more times and then shoved his cock into my pussy. He fucked me very hard for a bit, then told me to turn over. As I turned over, he took my panties off and threw them across the room. He spread my legs, knelt over me, and once again shoved his cock into my pussy. I wrapped my legs around him, my boots still on. He said he needed to taste me again, so he scooted down to my crotch, put my feet on his shoulders, and started to lick my clit while fingering my pussy. I enjoyed that for a while and then told him that I wanted his cock back inside me. He granted my wish. He sat up and started to fuck me once again. I reached down, took my boots off, and then placed my feet on his chest. I angled my body in just the right way so that his cock would hit my G-spot. He fucked me harder as I reached down to my clit and started to rub it. I began to rock my hips in rhythm with his thrusts. It didn't take long before he started to cum. I felt him fill my pussy with his hot man-juice and it brought me over the edge. I started to cum as well.

Afterwards, we both collapsed and passed out. We had to be up in four hours, but it was totally worth it. My husband is so damn hot. Women should definitely be jealous.


On another note, I don't really have time to write about it right now, but I had the most amazing dream about Tom Odell last night. God, that man is perfection. Trystan bought a signed picture of him and framed it for me. He even made sure his hands were in the picture. I may or may not have masturbated while looking at that picture. He has the most amazing hands that I've ever seen. If only I could meet that man, I would rock his world for sure. So many fantasies.

Obsession and Crushes

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