Sinful Sunday: Purple

It's the first Sunday of the month and the prompt for February is the color purple. I'm pretty passionate about purple. It's my favorite color and I adore it. If purple is an option, I always want it. My hair is sometimes purple (when I can find the time to dye it). My favorite lingerie is purple. My favorite sex toys are purple. 

Speaking of purple sex toys, here's one now...

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KOTW: Pet Play

Pet play is a kink in which at least one person role-plays as an animal. Sometimes that animal has an owner but not always. There are a lot of different ways that people participate in pet play.

I first became interested in pet play when I was about 20 years old. I had gotten a Blue's Clues hoodie that had ears attached to the hood. I fell in love with it as soon as I put it on and I wore it all the time. I ended up dressing up as Blue for Halloween that year and I even made a tail for myself. Now, this tail wasn't a butt plug. It just attached to my outfit but I still loved it. That day, people treated me like a puppy. They would pet me, tell me I was a good girl, and talk to me all cutesy-like. Of course, they just thought it was funny but it really made me feel good. I was very into it.

Little 20 year old Ash dressed up as Blue for Halloween.

Even though I knew I really liked it, I didn't know what to do about it. I was embarrassed. Pet play is so taboo. A lot of people get made fun of or thought less of because of it. How could I admit to any of my partners that I wanted to experiment with it further? So, I decided to just bury it down deep inside me right next to my little side, which I was also embarrassed about. 

Until now, I haven't admitted any of this to anyone. When I saw that the Kink of the Week topic was pet play, I saw my opportunity to finally come clean about it, however, it's taken me two weeks to finally get the courage to do it. So, here we go.

Pet play is very closely related to my little side. When I think of being a kitten, it gives me warm fuzzy feelings in my tummy. I think about being cared for and played with by my owner. I imagine being an adorable kitten with ears, a tail, and paws with toe beans. A cute little kitty who plays with toys and sometimes gets into mischief. It makes me smile to think about cuddling up in my owner's lap and taking a nap. I think about getting lots of pets and scritches that make me purr. I love the thought of being groomed, having my hair brushed or being given a bath. I even think about wearing a collar with a cute little bow and bell on it. That excites me very much.

I'm not sure I would ever feel up to eating from a bowl on the floor with my face, but I would definitely consider having a cute little dish to eat from with a utensil. That thought is actually making me smile right now. I wouldn't really enjoy lying on the floor at my owner's feet but I would definitely be into having a pet bed to sit/lie in or cuddling up next to them on the couch/bed. 

I feel like the owner/pet bond can create a very deep emotional connection and that sounds so lovely to me. I'm not really into the discipline part of it as much. Though, I wouldn't be opposed to giving it a try. I don't really like the idea of degradation when it comes to pet play either. Mostly, I'm into the caring part of it, just like a little is taken care of by her Daddy. I just love the idea of being called Pet, Pretty Kitty, or any other cutesy names you would call your kitten. That would really make me happy. Almost as much as being called Good Girl. Mmmm.

One of the things I really like about petspace as opposed to littlespace is that I wouldn't be expected to communicate with words. I've always been really into meowing. I have learned to do it so well that people actually mistake my meows for actual cats pretty often. Sometimes I just don't want to talk. I just want to be called a pretty girl and be taken care of. No expectations, just lots of love. 

Recently, as I've been thinking more seriously about actually trying this, I realized that it could be a really good coping mechanism for anxiety. When I'm feeling very overwhelmed and in a bad headspace, I could fall back on kitten play to help me relax and escape the stress of human life. It's a harmless way to cope when my mental health isn't great.

I'm feeling a little bit nervous about being open and honest about my feelings on this topic but it also feels a bit freeing. There aren't many things in my life that I'm not open and honest about and I prefer to live authentically. So, it feels kind of good to finally get it out in the open. I just hope no one judges me for it. I also hope that I find someone that I can trust to explore this with because now that I've spent two weeks really thinking about it, I'm pretty fucking excited about the possibilities.

Sinful Sunday: Color Splash

It's the first Sunday of the month, which means it's time for the Sinful Sunday prompt. This month's prompt is color splash. Color splash in photography is when you take an image and make most of it black and white while just a small piece of it pops with some color. This is the first time I've ever done this and I'm kind of in love with it. 

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Sinful Sunday: Filling My Holes

It's Sunday and we are definitely sinning.




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Another Failed DP Attempt

Saturday night, I was looking at some threesome porn on Tumblr. I was getting pretty turned on by it, so I decided to text Jacob to see if he'd like to come over. We made a plan for him to come over Sunday afternoon. When Husband got home, I told him the plan and he was excited about it.

I asked, "Is there anything you would like to do?" Husband responded, "I want to DP you. Me in your ass and him in your pussy." My whole body flushed like it was on fire and I stuttered a bit. "I...well...I'll try." I don't know what it is about DP that scares me so much. Maybe it's the thought of being so full. I have never been a size queen. "The bigger, the better" has never been my motto. Even fisting was a hard limit for me until four years ago when Husband basically tricked me into trying it. The idea of being so full is just very terrifying...and exciting. When I watch DP porn, it turns me on and I do want to try it. It just causes a lot of anxiety that I have to overcome. We've done it with toys and it was great. Honestly, it's all just in my head and I have to learn to relax about it.

Fast forward to Sunday afternoon. I was still getting ready when Jacob arrived, so Husband entertained him for a few minutes while I finished up. When I walked out of the bedroom, both of their jaws dropped as they looked at me. I was wearing an outfit that Jacob recently bought for me, a faux-leather crop top and mini skirt. The top wrapped around my breasts and was held together in the front by 4 metal clasps. The skirt was super short and my ass was bare in the back except for 4 elastic straps. As I approached them, I said, "Do you like it?" They couldn't even form a complete sentence, which I took as a compliment. I turned around, bent over, and pulled apart my ass cheeks, showing off the butt plug I had put in my ass while I was getting ready. Surprise! Husband was very excited to see that. I could tell it really turned him on.

Jacob walked over, grabbed a handful of my ass, and kissed me. I thanked him for buying the sexy outfit and he said, "Oh no, thank you for wearing it!" I told him to follow me into the bedroom. Jacob and Husband took off their clothes and I took off my skirt. I bent over onto the bed and waggled my ass at them. They started to caress and spank my ass together. I moaned as their hands made contact with my ass, biting my lip and feeling myself get very wet. Feeling their hands all over my ass and back felt amazing. I closed my eyes and took it all in. After a while, I grabbed a pillow and threw it on the ground. I knelt down on it and started sucking Jacob's cock. I licked the head a bit, swirling my tongue around like it was an ice cream cone. I slowly stuck it in my mouth, teasing him. He moaned, wanting more. I took it in deeper, slowly, until his cock was deep in my throat. Suddenly, he lost control and began fucking my throat. I dug my fingers into his thighs and relaxed my throat. Eventually, I had to pull away so I could take a breath. Tears were streaming down my face. Jacob reached down and wiped the tears away with his fingers. Oh god. *Swoooooooon* I turned to Husband and did the same to his cock. Teasing and then deep-throating him. As I was pulling away from his cock, Jacob moved in closer so that I could suck them both together. I licked their cocks, getting them nice and wet. Then, I rubbed their heads together. I swirled their heads around each other and listened to them moan out in pleasure. It turned me on so much. I stuck their cocks on top of each other and licked them all over. Then, I started sucking them again. They took turns fucking my throat and I loved it so much. Jacob suddenly pulled away and then knelt down next to me. He started to suck Husband's cock and I was completely taken by surprise. It was his first time doing that and I was so happy to experience it with him. We shared Husband's cock. Licking, sucking, and making out together. It was so fucking hot.

When my knees had had enough of kneeling on the floor, I got up, removed my top, laid down on the bed, and waited for the guys to join me. Jacob laid to my left and Husband knelt on the bed to my right. Jacob started making out with me while Husband rubbed my clit with his fingers and pinched my nipple with his other hand. Suddenly, Jacob pulled away and put his face between my thighs. He slid his fingers inside me and started to lick my clit. I sucked Husband's cock again while he continued to play with my nipples. I was close to cumming so many times, but my body was just not cooperating. I'm pretty sure that it was because I hadn't been awake for very long. I was very turned on and I would get almost to the peak of orgasm and it just would not let go. My body hates morning sex and it makes me so sad.

Jacob eventually gave up on trying to make me cum and crawled up to shove his cock in my throat again. I sucked his cock while Husband rubbed my clit with his fingers. I grabbed Jacob's hand and shoved his fingers in my pussy. Both of their hands were in/on me and it was fucking amazing. My hand fetish was so satisfied at that moment. I still could not cum though. It was incredibly frustrating. Husband took a turn going down on me. He fucked my pussy hard with his fingers. I continued to suck Jacob's cock and tried to relax enough to cum. Feeling desperate, I reached down and moved Husband's head away from my pussy and started to rub my clit with my fingers while he continued to finger fuck me. Finally, I started to cum and squirted all over the bed. It was the first time that Jacob got to witness that and it seemed like he enjoyed it. He went back down and licked my cum off of me. Mmmm.

I asked Jacob to grab a condom and I flipped over on my hands and knees. He slid his cock in my pussy slowly. I still had the butt plug in my ass, so it was a bit of a tight fit. He fucked me faster and let out a few exclamations of "Wow!" and "Oh my god!" Hearing that turned me on even more. He fucked me for a few minutes and then I said that I was ready to try DP. Jacob laid down on the bed and Husband slowly removed my butt plug. I straddled Jacob and tried to get his cock inside my pussy but by then, he was too nervous and lost his erection. This exact same thing happened the last two times I've tried to do DP. I am not upset at Jacob and I know it isn't his fault but I am feeling quite discouraged about the whole thing.

We tried for a while to get his erection back, but it just wasn't happening. I stood up and bent over the bed and started to suck Jacob's cock while Husband fucked me from behind. I had given up on the DP thing but I was determined to get Jacob's cock hard again so he could at least cum. Husband fucked me harder, shoving Jacob's cock into my throat. Then, Husband emptied his load into my pussy. I laid back down on the bed and Jacob went down on me, cleaning up the mess that Husband had made. That's been a fantasy of mine for quite some time and it was so fucking hot. I could tell it really turned Jacob on as well because he had his full erection back. He grabbed another condom and started fucking me. It didn't take long before he was cumming.

Jacob apologized multiple times for being the "weak link" in the DP situation. I know he felt really bad about it but things like this happen all the time and men can't really control how their penis acts. Losing an erection, not being able to get hard, and cumming too early are just things that happen sometimes. I don't ever hold that against the man. Regardless of the fact that I'm disappointed that it didn't happen, I'm not upset with Jacob at all.

I'm trying hard to not go down the road of blaming myself since this is the third time something like this has happened. I know it isn't my fault. I'm just feeling so discouraged. Hopefully one day I will be able to experience vaginal/anal DP. Sunday just wasn't that day.

Sinful Sunday: Butt Plug Level-up

Husband likes to fuck me doggy style while I have a plug in my ass. Yes, of course I like it too. I have always gone for the smaller plugs for this because the larger ones scare me a bit. The thought of being so full is exciting but terrifying at the same time. Husband has been wanting me to graduate from the small ones to a medium one. Recently, we got this medium sized Njoy butt plug as a gift from Jacob. I have to say that I really love it and it wasn't scary at all once it was in place. Maybe I'll end up getting a larger one. We'll see...





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Kink of the Week: Doggy Style

While I enjoy sex in almost any position I've tried, my favorite sex position is definitely doggy style. There are so many different reasons that I enjoy being fucked from behind. As I write about the things that I love about doggy style, Husband is going to add his comments (in bold) as well.

Sometimes, doggy style really caters to the submissive in me. I love to lie down on the bed, flat on my tummy, while Husband lies on top of me, using his weight to hold me down. He enters me from behind, using my pussy to get himself off. Being used like this makes me feel so dirty. I especially love when he calls me a slut while doing this because then it feels extra filthy. This is the only position that I really like to feel degraded and used in. It feels so hot that the only point of this is to get him off. Though, he always helps get me off after he cums, either using his mouth or his fingers. Over the last few years, this has been a very intense display of dominance from me, and one I thoroughly enjoy. Something about taking her and being in complete control, just because I want to is really enticing for me. I love being really foul mouthed about using her like this, especially when I hold her down with a hand grasping her ass, and my other entwined in her hair holding her head down. Very, very nice.

Another way it really pleases the submissive in me is when he's forceful with it. This is my favorite way to have sex in the doggy style position. I love when he takes control of me, pushing me down and pulling my hair. It feels so good when he uses my pigtails as handlebars. When he gets really into it, he grabs onto my hips, pulling me into him, fucking me HARD. I love when I can get into a really great rhythm and just pound the fuck out of her. It gets so loud that it sounds like I am spanking her when it is only our bodies colliding together. The sound of our bodies slamming together, the wetness of her pussy, and the immaculate moaning that she cannot contain is divine! Sometimes he spanks my ass, which always surprises me and makes me moan. He loves to stick his thumb in my ass during this kind of intense sex. Doggy style is my favorite position for many reasons. One of them being that I have a highly sensitive area to play with. Sometimes lightly running my fingers or tongue coaxing the most amazing purring out of her, sometimes a rough kneading of her muscles with my hands getting a deeper satisfied purr. Another reason is that the view is spectacular! A glowing pale skin that can still reflect the barest amount of light, no matter how dark it seems to be. Her curves are laid out in front of me to devour with my eyes. I get to see her beautiful pussy wet and ready for me, and her perfect tight little asshole that when I see it I want to touch it, play with it, be inside of it in some way. Then the best part is actually fucking her when she is bent over. It feels so primal and powerful to me. There is an energy transfer that is always going on, from both of us, a give and take that matches how we are outside of the bedroom. She isn't lying when she says that I love to stick my thumb up her ass when I fuck her from behind, it is intense to have control over her holes that way. Sometimes I try to resist and other times I just melt into it. Mmmm. I can easily rub my clit with my fingers or use a vibrator. We almost always cum together this way, which is really fucking hot. Rough doggy style gets me off so well.

I very much enjoy using butt plugs when having sex in the doggy style position. I like that Husband can look at the plug while fucking me. I know that turns him on so much. I love how I can feel every thrust move the plug in my ass. We often fantasize or role play that someone else is fucking my ass as he is fucking my pussy. DP is a huge turn on for both of us. We fantasize about DP in missionary as well, but he's usually in my ass and a dildo is in my pussy when we do that. Getting permission to put a butt plug, or other toy into her ass ahead of time is like Halloween and Christmas all at once! It is such a turn on that I get chills and can hardly stop myself from shaking with excitement. I love being able to watch the butt plug move every time I thrust in and out of her, it makes it really difficult to hold myself together and not cum really quickly. Even better is when I get myself set up with a strap-on using my cock in her pussy with the dildo in her ass. Being able to fuck both of her holes and fill her up while she gets to fantasize about more than one partner inside of her is exquisite.

I don't often feel very dominant in the bedroom. However, when I am feeling like taking control, doggy style is my favorite way to do it. I'll admit that I'm not the best at cowgirl sex. Because genetics sometimes screw you over, I have really bad knees that like to lock up and feel like they are going to explode. So, I don't often ride on top. Doggy style creates an easier alternative to this. After Husband enters me from behind, I can be the one in charge of the thrusting. I love to thrust back, shoving his cock deep inside my pussy. I can control the depth, speed, and hardness of the thrusts. I love making Husband cum like this. It makes me feel so empowered. I absolutely love when she feels like taking some control in the bedroom, but I have to admit it is best when she is bent over in front of me and I just hold myself readily available for her. I love how much I feel like she really wants my cock inside of her, and she is not afraid to show just how much she wants it by bucking against me.

Doggy style is also the perfect position for sex in random places. I've been bent over in an old abandoned house, grabbing onto a post for stabilization. I've also been fucked in the bathrooms of quite a few of my friend's and family's houses, bent over a sink, trying to not make any noises that would give away what we were doing in there. Sex in public is also great in this position. It's an easy position to do without having to take off too many clothing items and you can stop quickly and look innocent if someone happens to come along. Husband and I like to fuck on our balcony like this. He bends me over the railing and fucks me from behind. Once, a neighbor was sitting in their car right outside and could see everything we were doing. I'm still not sure if they realized what was going on. Fuck, that was so hot. We also tend to fuck in the doggy style position when we have sex on the couch...or in the kitchen bent over the counter or the table. It definitely makes sex easier when fucking in places outside of the bedroom. Having more sex in random places is definitely on my to do list. I love that doggy style makes it more readily able because I can push her up against a sink, a wall, table, chair, or whatever is at hand, then bend her over and just fuck her.

Rear-entry spooning is something that I'm not a big fan of. The cock just doesn't seem to hit all of the sweet spots. It is very useful for when you are both exhausted though. While fucking me in this position, Husband usually lifts my leg up and into my chest as he rubs my clit. You won't hear much moaning from me in this position because it just doesn't feel that great. We usually end up in more of a T shape by the end of it, which does feel slightly better. Really, this position is only good for when I really need to be fucked but neither of us can be bothered to put that much effort into it. So, it will do when times are rough. I wouldn't have thought of including this in doggy style fucking, but essentially it is, just sideways. We definitely do this more when we are exhausted and/or sore and it does the job, but usually takes longer (which could be because of being exhausted in the first place). One thing about rear-entry spooning that I do like is that if I am in the mood for breath play, it is a simpler way of incorporating for me. This was actually how I started breath play with her. It started very slowly, just light pressure, touches and caresses. Then I increased pressure when the noises she was making indicated that she was enjoying herself. From there I found that she was so wet that I couldn't resist sliding my cock into her pussy while holding her throat. That was quite fun.

There is one thing that I really dislike about doggy style. I am not a size queen. Bigger is not always better in my book. While there is such a thing as too small, I'm more happy with an average cock than an above average one. If a cock is 8+ inches long, doggy style can sometimes be too much. It goes way too deep and hits my cervix. I have a VERY sensitive cervix and if it's hit, it hurts a lot and I bleed. So, I try to avoid that whenever possible. That doesn't mean that I won't do doggy style with someone with a huge cock. It just can't be super rough.

Doggy style will always be my favorite. It's just a very versatile position and it feels absolutely amazing. I second this, also my favorite.