KOTW: Pet Play

Pet play is a kink in which at least one person role-plays as an animal. Sometimes that animal has an owner but not always. There are a lot of different ways that people participate in pet play.

I first became interested in pet play when I was about 20 years old. I had gotten a Blue's Clues hoodie that had ears attached to the hood. I fell in love with it as soon as I put it on and I wore it all the time. I ended up dressing up as Blue for Halloween that year and I even made a tail for myself. Now, this tail wasn't a butt plug. It just attached to my outfit but I still loved it. That day, people treated me like a puppy. They would pet me, tell me I was a good girl, and talk to me all cutesy-like. Of course, they just thought it was funny but it really made me feel good. I was very into it.

Little 20 year old Ash dressed up as Blue for Halloween.

Even though I knew I really liked it, I didn't know what to do about it. I was embarrassed. Pet play is so taboo. A lot of people get made fun of or thought less of because of it. How could I admit to any of my partners that I wanted to experiment with it further? So, I decided to just bury it down deep inside me right next to my little side, which I was also embarrassed about. 

Until now, I haven't admitted any of this to anyone. When I saw that the Kink of the Week topic was pet play, I saw my opportunity to finally come clean about it, however, it's taken me two weeks to finally get the courage to do it. So, here we go.

Pet play is very closely related to my little side. When I think of being a kitten, it gives me warm fuzzy feelings in my tummy. I think about being cared for and played with by my owner. I imagine being an adorable kitten with ears, a tail, and paws with toe beans. A cute little kitty who plays with toys and sometimes gets into mischief. It makes me smile to think about cuddling up in my owner's lap and taking a nap. I think about getting lots of pets and scritches that make me purr. I love the thought of being groomed, having my hair brushed or being given a bath. I even think about wearing a collar with a cute little bow and bell on it. That excites me very much.

I'm not sure I would ever feel up to eating from a bowl on the floor with my face, but I would definitely consider having a cute little dish to eat from with a utensil. That thought is actually making me smile right now. I wouldn't really enjoy lying on the floor at my owner's feet but I would definitely be into having a pet bed to sit/lie in or cuddling up next to them on the couch/bed. 

I feel like the owner/pet bond can create a very deep emotional connection and that sounds so lovely to me. I'm not really into the discipline part of it as much. Though, I wouldn't be opposed to giving it a try. I don't really like the idea of degradation when it comes to pet play either. Mostly, I'm into the caring part of it, just like a little is taken care of by her Daddy. I just love the idea of being called Pet, Pretty Kitty, or any other cutesy names you would call your kitten. That would really make me happy. Almost as much as being called Good Girl. Mmmm.

One of the things I really like about petspace as opposed to littlespace is that I wouldn't be expected to communicate with words. I've always been really into meowing. I have learned to do it so well that people actually mistake my meows for actual cats pretty often. Sometimes I just don't want to talk. I just want to be called a pretty girl and be taken care of. No expectations, just lots of love. 

Recently, as I've been thinking more seriously about actually trying this, I realized that it could be a really good coping mechanism for anxiety. When I'm feeling very overwhelmed and in a bad headspace, I could fall back on kitten play to help me relax and escape the stress of human life. It's a harmless way to cope when my mental health isn't great.

I'm feeling a little bit nervous about being open and honest about my feelings on this topic but it also feels a bit freeing. There aren't many things in my life that I'm not open and honest about and I prefer to live authentically. So, it feels kind of good to finally get it out in the open. I just hope no one judges me for it. I also hope that I find someone that I can trust to explore this with because now that I've spent two weeks really thinking about it, I'm pretty fucking excited about the possibilities.