Thinking of You

I met DJ in person on Monday afternoon. I was so nervous about it. Thankfully, he says that I didn't appear nervous at all. At least I'm good at appearing to be completely cool and calm even when I'm a complete mess inside. 

So, I technically met DJ on my Only Fans page. When he subscribed, my first thought was that he is really cute. Then, I found out that he lives really close to me. We started talking in September and we've been getting along really well. The sexual tension between us is very thick.

Last week, he asked if I wanted to meet up with him but I wasn't feeling well. So, we decided to do it this week. I had such a good time with him. He's super sweet, respectful, funny, and hot as fuck. I was very turned on the whole time we were together. I wanted to kiss him so badly but I had convinced myself that he didn't want me to. Stupid anxiety. We did hug though, which was so nice.

When I got home, I texted him and asked if he still liked me. He responded with, "Are you kidding me?!  You’re awesome! I definitely like you!" Which, completely made my day. We spent the rest of the day talking about how much we want each other and I had a really hard time concentrating on anything else. Ugh, the sexual tension is so exciting and so frustrating at the same time! 

So, I've basically been daydreaming about him since Monday. I can't wait until I can finally feel his hands on my body. 

Red Hot Ash

Most of my lingerie is black or purple. Recently, though, I've been really feeling red lingerie. I used to think it clashed with my pale skin but I think I can pull it off. What do you think?

Photo Credit: Blood Moon Studios

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Sweet Innocence

This is my fifth year participating in February Photofest. I look forward to this so much every year. Hopefully, you do as well!

Last week, I prepared by doing a photoshoot with a friend of mine. He takes some very beautiful photos. 

This one makes me think of innocence and cotton candy. I thought that was a good place to start.

Photo Credit: Blood Moon Studios

My previous February PhotoFest posts can be found in the links below:

2018

2019

2020

2021

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KOTW: Painted Nails

The discussion topic for Kink of the Week is painted nails. 

I used to love painting my nails when I was younger. When I was a teenager and I started to get into goth fashion, I painted my nails all the time. Of course, they were always black. It became part of my routine. I hated the look of chipped polish. So, every weekend, I would take off the polish and put on a fresh coat. It made me feel extra spooky, which I loved.

When I was 15, I switched high schools and met Dante. He was also goth and kept his fingernails painted black but his looked much prettier than mine. He told me the secret was to put a shiny topcoat on it. That is what really made them pop. He was right! So, I have been doing that ever since. 

Soon, Dante and I got really close. We started having phone sex regularly. One night, after a very intense phone sex session, we were both trying to catch our breath when he asked, "Hey, what color are your nails?" I answered, "Black..." He let out a little laugh and said, "Mine too." It was such a silly little thing but after that "What color are your nails?" became our little code for phone sex.

I don't paint my nails as much these days. Honestly, I only do it maybe twice a year. I'm not sure why I stopped. I guess I just hate having to deal with it once it starts chipping. I feel like people are judging me when I have chipped polish on my nails. I'm sure it's just all in my head but it still causes anxiety. 

When I do paint my nails, it's still just black 90% of the time but occasionally, I'll find some spooky polish strips that I love. Recently, I found a bunch of polish strips that I bought a couple years ago from a friend. Maybe I should start using them. I do really love how my painted fingernails look when I'm sucking cock. That's all the more reason to do it!

As far as kink is concerned, I don't necessarily consider painted nails a kink for me, though it is very closely related to my hand fetish. I love hands. Small hands, big hands, veiny hands, smooth hands, strong hands, delicate hands, all kinds of hands. I do have some preferences but really, all hands are good. As long as they are clean. Dirty hands and nails gross me out, so they definitely need to be taken care of.

Maybe painted nails aren't really a kink for me but seeing painted nails on a man really turns me on. Maybe it's because it's so taboo or maybe it's because it reminds me of those steamy phone sex sessions with Dante all those years ago. Whatever the reason, I'm very much into it. I'm pretty much indifferent about painted nails on a woman. I can appreciate how pretty they are but they don't do anything for me sexually.

Painted nails can be a lot of fun but they can also include a lot of upkeep. I do think I'll start making an effort to get back into it though. At least for a little bit so I can try it out. You know, see how it feels. Maybe it will help me feel sexier. That's always much appreciated.

Sinful Sunday: Thicc AF

 On Wednesday evening, a friend of mine took some photos of me at his house. It was six hours of work (minus some time for a few breaks in there) and he created some really beautiful and sexy photos. During one of the breaks for an outfit change, I caught this photo in his mirror. I absolutely love the sticker he has on the mirror and I think it really fits here.

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Sinful Sunday: Sexy Innocence

One of my favorite fans, DJ, bought me this outfit recently. While doing a photoshoot for him, Husband said, “I don’t know how you pull off looking so innocent while looking so fucking sexy.” Sexy innocence has always been my specialty. What can I say? 

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TMI Tuesday: January 18, 2022

 You’re back, very good. Oh, you’re new here? Welcome. Let us play TMI Tuesday.

Bondage and Dwarfs

Ash:

1. What is one thing your significant other could do to you to rock your world?

Sensation play. It's definitely my biggest kink. I love it so much. It's the only thing that will get me to subspace, possibly so deeply that I pass out. I want all of the sensation play, please.

2. You have been granted the superpower you always wanted. How will you abuse that power? Why?

The superpower I have always wanted is teleportation. The only way I can think of to abuse that power is to use it when I'm in a situation that I'd rather not be in. Then *poof* I just teleport to the beach to clear my head. I mean, it might be considered kind of rude. I'm just way too nice to do anything too horrible.

3. For sexy play, would you rather be tied up or tie someone else up? Why?

I'd rather be tied up myself. I am very much a sub. I don't enjoy tying other people up. I've tried it and just wasn't into it. My brain is like, "Okay, you're restrained. Now what?" I would rather my partner be able to use their whole body with me during sexy time.

4. What is your best physical and non-physical asset?

Wow, this is a tough question. My best non-physical asset is probably that I'm a really good listener. People often come to me when they have issues that they need to talk about. I'm not judgy and I often have good advice if that's what they are looking for. If they aren't looking for advice, I also give really good hugs. For my best physical asset, it's probably my eyes. I get a lot of compliments on my eyes. People say they are really deep and soulful. 

5. Referring to Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, if they were naming new dwarfs beyond the seven what would your name be and why?

Sexilicious, of course! I mean, isn't it obvious?

Husband:

1. What is one thing your significant other could do to you to rock your world?

I know this may sound extremely corny and cheesy, but pausing what they are doing to see me when I come home from work, giving me a hug, and being there in the moment welcoming me home.

2. You have been granted the superpower you always wanted. How will you abuse that power? Why?

My superpower would be to alter reality with my imagination, allowing me to be more or less omnipotent. I do not have the time to tell you about all the ways I would abuse that power. I would definitely blow shit up randomly, put it back together, blow it up again. That seems like a nice safe thing to say on the internet. There are many more subtle cases of abuse of having that power that I would enjoy. From conversations over the years about exactly what I would do if I gained my superpower I have no doubts that I would be a supervillain, to begin with, then perhaps later become an anti-hero.

3. For sexy play, would you rather be tied up or tie someone else up? Why?

For sexy play, I would rather tie someone else up. I don't particularly enjoy the feeling of being restrained with ties and/or bonds because of poor experiences when I was younger. I feel like it is always giving me fight and flight responses rather than anything sexy. I do enjoy the feeling of power over someone else when tying them up, even if it is only a symbol of power.

4. What is your best physical and non-physical asset?

The best physical asset that is physically appealing to me is my eyes. I love the color of my eyes. I think the fact that they change color slightly during mood changes or when they change to clothing colors; can be quite intense to see. Non-physically my best asset would be my imagination. While sometimes it can be detrimental to me to have such an overactive imagination, it usually comes in handy keeping me occupied when I'm going about my day. When I daydream or read it's like I am actually there and I've been transported to a different place altogether and it's so incredible.

5. Referring to Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, if they were naming new dwarfs beyond the seven what would your name be and why?

Sneaky of course, because I sneak, and am good at it!

Sinful Sunday: Reins

When he grabs you by the reins and fucks you as hard as he can. Mmmm, yesssss.

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Sinful Sunday: Happy New Year

Well, here we are, a week into a new year. 2021 was pretty horrible for me. I spent the first half of it feeling incredibly lonely and suicidal. I spent the second half in therapy trying to get control of my mental health. Thankfully, I've found some meds that really help my anxiety but my OCD is still a huge struggle. My sex life wasn't much better either.

A year ago, I wrote about how I had stopped judging myself and finally felt comfortable with the fact that I want to have sex with lots of people. Then, the pandemic happened and it put everything on hold. I ended that post by saying, "Here's to hoping that 2021 has something wonderful in store for my sex life." Well, turns out, it didn't.

The pandemic is still ongoing and I didn't have sex with anyone new all year. I saw the Doctor twice in 2021. Both times, he just wanted blow jobs from me. No fucking happened either time. I also got my girlfriend back for a couple months but no sex was had with her either. I had reached out to Jacob a few times but I got rejected there as well. Husband and I have sex about 2-3 times a month at this point. It's definitely not enough to keep me satisfied. So, I'm just feeling pretty defeated at this point. 

I am trying to think positively about 2022. After two years of shite, this has to be a better year, right? Well, I guess we will see.

Anyway, happy New Year to you. I hope you have an amazing 2022.

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Sinful Sunday: Senses

The January prompt for Sinful Sunday is Senses. The five senses are one of the keys to having an amazing sexual experience. Stimulating or depriving your senses can make for a very powerful orgasm. 

Touch is my favorite sense but very close behind that is taste. Whether I’m tasting others or they are tasting me, it’s always very hot. 

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