Well, here we are, a week into a new year. 2021 was pretty horrible for me. I spent the first half of it feeling incredibly lonely and suicidal. I spent the second half in therapy trying to get control of my mental health. Thankfully, I've found some meds that really help my anxiety but my OCD is still a huge struggle. My sex life wasn't much better either.
A year ago, I wrote about how I had stopped judging myself and finally felt comfortable with the fact that I want to have sex with lots of people. Then, the pandemic happened and it put everything on hold. I ended that post by saying, "Here's to hoping that 2021 has something wonderful in store for my sex life." Well, turns out, it didn't.
The pandemic is still ongoing and I didn't have sex with anyone new all year. I saw the Doctor twice in 2021. Both times, he just wanted blow jobs from me. No fucking happened either time. I also got my girlfriend back for a couple months but no sex was had with her either. I had reached out to Jacob a few times but I got rejected there as well. Husband and I have sex about 2-3 times a month at this point. It's definitely not enough to keep me satisfied. So, I'm just feeling pretty defeated at this point.
I am trying to think positively about 2022. After two years of shite, this has to be a better year, right? Well, I guess we will see.
Anyway, happy New Year to you. I hope you have an amazing 2022.
Urgh I can so relate to this. I was full of hope for 2021 being a shagfest year but it turned out to be the exact opposite and so it is really hard to feel hopefully about 2022 now
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Hope, hope and wish, that frequency ... and intensity ... will improve for 2022. And with such a lovely bottom to entice, I'm sure it will !!!
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