Some of the marks Aidan left on me |
Friday, May 31, 2024
It's Been a While
Tuesday, May 14, 2024
TMI Tuesday: May 14, 2024
Happy Titty Tuesday |
It’s time for TMI Tuesday: Masturbation Month Edition!
Mia is joining me once again for today's questions.
Ash:
1. My favorite place to masturbate is ________ ?
In the shower with a detachable shower head.
2. Have you ever masturbated in public? What were the circumstances?
Yes. I've masturbated on a bus, on a plane, in a bar, and at parties. Also, lots of public restrooms but I don't think that counts. Sometimes I just get really horny or want a thrill.
3. Do you like mutual masturbation? Why?
Yes! I love it. I think it's incredibly sexy and brings you a lot closer to your partner. I did a Sinful Sunday post on this a couple years ago.
4. When was the last time you masturbated?
Hmm. I think it was last week. I masturbated in my bed with my purple vibrator.
5. Have you ever masturbated on camera?
Yes, I've made lots of videos and I enjoy doing that. Though, doing it during a video chat always makes me really nervous so I have a hard time cumming.
6. Do you like to watch people masturbate?
Yesss! It's one of my favorite things.
Bonus: Have you filmed yourself masturbating? Care to share that film via a link?
I have filmed that lots of times. Here's the link.
Mia:
1. My favorite place to masturbate is ________ ?
My favorite places to masturbate are the bed and the bathtub while taking a bath.
2. Have you ever masturbated in public? What were the circumstances?
No, I have not.
3. Do you like mutual masturbation? Why?
Yes. It's super intimate, voyeuristic and hot AF to watch and hear your partner cum. It is also a good way to learn how your partner likes to be pleasured.
4. When was the last time you masturbated?
Today. 😁
5. Have you ever masturbated on camera?
Yes, I have sent videos of myself masturbating to partners in the past. 🙈
6. Do you like to watch people masturbate?
Yes.
Bonus: Have you filmed yourself masturbating? Care to share that film via a link?
I have filmed it, yes. I do not currently have said video.
Friday, May 10, 2024
A New Metamour
Lots of things on my mind |
I usually write about the sexy part of my life but today, I'm going to talk about some hard shit. Polyamory is amazing but it's also very hard sometimes. It takes a lot of work and a lot of that is internal work on yourself.
For the past 10 years, Husband has been mostly monogamous. He's had threesomes and such with me but he wasn't interested in dating other people. I struggled with that a bit. I felt guilty for being polyamorous and needing to have relationships and sex with other people. But he was always very supportive of my needs, even when they made him feel jealous and insecure.
A few months ago, Husband told me that he was having thoughts about wanting a relationship with another woman. At first, I was a bit shocked because he was always so sure that he didn't want that. My second reaction was nervousness because I wasn't sure how that would make me feel. It had been a long time since I had seen him with someone else and he had never dated another woman before. But then my brain finally settled on feeling excitement for him. I have always wanted him to be fulfilled and happy. So, I encouraged him to explore that. It took a few months, but he finally found someone that he was interested in.
Husband has been talking to a woman for a couple months. Initially, I very much encouraged him to go out with her. I gave him dating advice and helped calm his nerves before going out with her. I looked forward to hearing all about his dates when he came home and I was so happy for him. Then, something suddenly changed for me.
For the past few years, our relationship has been struggling. Husband pulled away from me and stopped communicating. Our sex life became almost non-existent. There were things that I needed from him that I wasn't getting. Things got really bad for a while but we've been working on our relationship throughout the last year and it's improved a lot. There is still much work to do though.
When I saw him giving those things that I needed to this woman he was talking to, I started feeling jealous. Then, I started comparing myself to this girl as well because I was already in a dark place. Why didn't I deserve those things? Why hasn't he been giving them to me? Does he like her better than me? So many negative thoughts that I wasn't used to.
Jealousy is a rare emotion for me. I'm not a jealous person. In fact, I only feel jealous if I'm being treated unfairly or not getting something that I need. This was really hard for me to deal with because I have very little experience with feeling jealousy. I have been dealing with it as best as I can but some days are really hard.
On Wednesday, Husband told me that things became official between them. She is now his girlfriend. On one hand, I am so happy for him. But on the other hand, I still have some emotions to work through. The thing about jealousy is that it's completely normal but it's up to you to work it out for yourself. So, that is what I'm trying to do.
Anyway, to sum all of this up, I now have a new metamour and I have complicated and conflicting emotions about it. I think things will eventually work out and I'll feel better about everything but the anxiety I'm feeling right now is very overwhelming some days.
I still think polyamory is absolutely worth it. I could never be in a monogamous relationship again for the rest of my life. I tried that already and it just didn't work out. It's not for me. Polyamory sure does take a lot more work than monogamy though. I'm going to continue working on myself and I'm excited for what the future has in store for Husband. I hope this new relationship brings him a lot of happiness.
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Tuesday, May 7, 2024
TMI Tuesday: May 7, 2024
Happy Titty Tuesday |
It’s time for TMI Tuesday! Sex, sex, and more sex.
Ash:
1. Have you ever considered yourself completely sexually satisfied?
I don't think I've ever been completely sexually satisfied. That's not due to my partners' lack of pleasing me. I just always want more. I think it's all part of being a nympho. It's never enough.
2. What was the last sexy photo you took?
The Sinful Sunday photo from a couple days ago.
3. When was the last sexy photo you took AND sexted? What was it of and to whom was it sent?
Umm. Honestly, I don't think I have taken any sexy photos since last Tuesday. I posted my titties on my Private Snapchat story and also sent it to my partners. It's been a rough week and I haven't felt sexy at all.
4. How is your sex-life?
a. Like a wet blanket
b. Like a warm cozy comforter
c. Like an electric blanket getting you all heated up
d. None of the above, I sleep without covers
A little bit A, because I'm always leaving a wet puddle but not in the sense of not being pleasurable. My actual answer is C. My partners are really great at pleasing me. They get me all heated up for sure.
5. What’s your idea of good foreplay?
I have a complicated relationship with foreplay. Sometimes I love the idea of taking your time to explore your lover's body. Making them yearn for more before you please them. And other times, I just want to hurry up and get to the fucking and orgasms. I might not be the best person to ask about foreplay. But generally, I think good foreplay is doing anything that gets your partner warmed up and turned on. That will be different for every person, I think.
Bonus: Can you have a great, long-lasting sex life with the same partner? How?
I've been having sex with Husband for 22 years and I still enjoy it very much. I think the key is to listen to what your partner wants, always keep an open mind, and try to keep things fresh. Don't keep doing the same shit and make things go stale. It's also very important to be enthusiastic. Don't treat sex like a chore. Make sure your partner's pleasure is important to you and they should do the same thing for you.
Husband:
1. Have you ever considered yourself completely sexually satisfied?
I do usually consider myself sexually satisfied. It's never a permanent satisfaction because I feel like it resets daily. When I don't have sex for a while it passes on and builds until the next time I end up having sex. It may not make a whole lot of sense to anyone else, but that's how it feels to me.
2. What was the last sexy photo you took?
I took shower pictures of my back and backside about a month ago.
3. When was the last sexy photo you took AND sexted? What was it of and to whom was it sent?
The pictures from the last question. I took them while showering after a weekend of camping and sent them to Wife because it had been a few days since I had seen her and I wanted to send her something nice.
4. How is your sex-life?
a. Like a wet blanket
b. Like a warm cozy comforter
c. Like an electric blanket getting you all heated up
d. None of the above, I sleep without covers
Back and forth between b. and c. but mostly c. lately. There has been an intensity and fire the last few months that I feel is due to reconnecting with Wife on many different levels.
5. What’s your idea of good foreplay?
Lots of touch and caressing with hands and fingers and lips. There are so many amazing sensations that I love to feel from different touches. Giving and receiving oral, I really enjoy giving oral and the act in itself gives me a lot of pleasure.
Bonus: Can you have a great, long-lasting sex life with the same partner? How?
I think it all comes down to working at it like any relationship. I can't keep doing the same thing all the time, otherwise everything would become a routine. I also try to make sure I show just how much sex with Wife means to me, and while I haven't always been the best at this I am being a lot more vocal about it now. I do truly enjoy the hell out of sex with Wife. It can be completely sensual, completely physical, sometimes even just goofy and comical, or a combination of all of them and it makes me feel so good to still have this connection with Wife after years of being together.