Heartbreak and Fishnet Friday

I got my heart broken yesterday. I’ve been dating a guy for the last few months that I developed feelings for. He seemed like everything I’ve been looking for. Just perfect for me and I felt a deep soul connection with him. Too good to be true. I knew it was but I went for it anyway despite all my internal alarms going off telling me that I was going to get hurt. I didn’t listen and now I’m hating myself for it. 

To make matters worse, I got his message as soon as I left therapy, where I was dealing with some deep and intense childhood trauma. So, I was feeling very raw and emotional. And that heartbreak sunk deep into my soul.

I’ve been crying in bed for 24 hours and I can’t seem to find the strong independent woman inside myself. I don’t know why I allow people to get through my walls. They always hurt me. One day, maybe I’ll be enough. One day, maybe I won’t be too much. One day, maybe I'll get back what I give to others. That day is not today. 

Anyway, it’s fishnet Friday and I don’t have the emotional energy to take a new photo for you. So, here’s a throwback to April.